I'm not gay
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Last published Mon, Sep 7, 2020
Nick Matthew, a seventeen-year-old boy, he has had many girlfriends in his short life. So he knows he not gay. He stands about 6'3 with brown hair and hazel eyes.
His mother passed away when he was 10 and his father wasn't happy. After that, his father was an alcohol addict which means he did not know what he was doing. He always abused Nick because the alcohol takes over.
Nick Matthew has depression and is what people call 'cold-hearted' or 'has no heart' and the most are 'emotionless' He has tried to commit suicide but never had the heart to commit to it.
Kai or Kayla had just moved to Florida. He is a sixteen-year-old boy. He had a boyfriend Zayne who abused and raped him. He has known he was gay from the start He stands short at 5'2 with blond hair and blue eyes.
His mother is a stay at home mom and his father works. Everyone loves him, he had no hate to him. But yet he was still sad. Not depressed but empty.
What happens when these boys meet? What will Nick Mattew do? Find out in this gay love story!
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