I Know How It Feels (Depression)
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Ongoing5m
Last published Sun, Nov 30, 2014
{This is just me telling some of my life story, the parts nobody knows..}
So it all started about two years ago.. the depression. I am now 15 and a Sophomore in high school. Life has been one reckless roller-coaster for me. Nobody my age should ever go through anything like this..ever. Depression is truly a mental disorder and in my opinion I think it's shit. It is the worst thing anyone could ever go through. Why? Well that's why i'm here to tell you my story and how much it can truly ruin your life and your dignity.
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