Letters of Bewildered Thought

A girl creates a hypothetical version of a real life boy named John and begins writing letters to him. She writes nothing in particular, hence the bewildered thought, but as she writes about herself, she starts noticing a lot of things she says are strange... especially about the real John. What's his deal? Does she care? Look into the mind of the curious and confused teenage girl, who isn't quite sure what she's started, but knows she doesn't want it to end.