When lotus withered [MDZS, XiCheng FF]

All he wishes is affection, like how the lotus needs its water to live. The feeling of being loved, appreciated and cared for but he understands he will never experience those. Not in this lifetime.

Where Jiang Cheng leaves the cultivation world to find and regain himself, away from the awful environment he used to chase and yearn for. He just wants to feel the sense of being prioritized because all his life, he was a mere option when a situation does not ensue in how it should be.

He leaves everything that represses him to demise.