Tired of pretending (kiribaku)
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  • Reads 355,282
  • Votes 9,495
  • Parts 40
  • Time 5h 58m
Complete, First published Sep 19, 2020
Katsuki Bakugo is tired, tired of feelings so fucking pathetic.

He's a shitty person, with an even shittier life. It's what he deserves, isn't it? Funny how fate has a way of balancing the scale.

He'll never be a pro-hero, not when he's barely surviving each day he has to put up with his mother. 

But he's not asking for pity, Katsuki Bakugo can take care of himself.

And no one needs to know anything, they need to keep their damn mouths shut, or else they'll see the wall he's built up is slowly tumbling down.

This is Kiribaku btw is the title didn't give it away.

!!!Disclaimer: this is a four year old work and written in first person. It's not my best to say the least but I'm leaving it because it was an important part of my writing journey (although I'm not putting "angsty Bakugo fanfic" on any portfolio ʅ(◞‿◟)ʃ) I rewrote the summary because I hated it but mostly everything else is remaining unchanged because I'm too lazy to edit a 70k story. Be warned this is in first person and this fic does cover some serious topics (how well it does that it up to you). Thank you for continuing if you chose to do so and I appreciate all the support this fic has gotten it was certainly an experience : )!!!
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↦𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘧 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭 𝘫𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘴 𝘜.𝘈. 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘏𝘗𝘚𝘊 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘰𝘳. 𝘏𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳, 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘥𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘶𝘮𝘢 𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯, 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘢𝘭. 𝘛𝘰 𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘰𝘳. angst, enemies to lovers,slow burn, give it a shot. I'm js a silly author. Do I wanna know? - Arctic Monkeys "Listen here, hole eyes, I'm gonna win the sports festival and show the world that I'm even greater than the HPSC president's recommendation" "Oh? So did you defeat Todoroki before? Did you catch the eye of the public as the most promising U.A. student and as the first one to get recommended by the HPSC?" He remained silent, a scowl decorating his features. You grabbed his jaw, your lips grazing over his cheek. "I'm gonna show the world that I didn't get recommended for nothing. So sit down and watch, 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢", you whispered into his ear, pushing him back into his seat, your voice so cold that it sent shivers down his spine. Occupation (pro hero) inspired by @GrizzlyBear_Katsuki 's fanfiction: Bad Habits -Slow burn Enemies to lovers -Bakugo x OP!FEM!read