I hate

I hate. I hate you. I hate me. I hate life. I hate. I hate. I hate. I want to die. I want to scream until my voice gives way and I can't any more. I want to go in a corner curl up in a ball and disappear. I needed you. I needed love. I needed someone to care. I pretend that I don't care about life. I pretend that I'm stronger than I am. I'm weak. I'm weak enough to break fold crumble and burn. I'm confused. I'm confused as to where it all went wrong. I cut. I cut to feel. I cut to take away emotional pain letting all that bleed out as I take in physical pain. I have. I have nothing. I have one chance and I ruined it. I wish. I wish I had a second chance. Start over. Start over rewind take back what I said what I did. What'd I do??? Where'd it go wrong??? Who am I?? When did it get so bad??? Why? Because... because I hate. I hate you. I hate me. I hate life. I hate. I hate. I hate....