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Everything I Thought I Wanted

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⚠️Warning⚠️ this story involves suicide and depressing thoughts could trigger someone 

This is a story that I wrote after I had a dream about myself committing suicide. May I add though, I am not ever in real life going to attempt to kill my self nor self harm. 

I took the plot of my dream and the feelings I feel and have felt in the past from my real life and made a story I feel might be enjoyable to others.

For anyone who suffers or has suffered from depression and/or anxiety I am sorry. I truly understand how it feels. It is never easy. 
But just know that you all individually are amazing.All Rights Reserved

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