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21 and Lost

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Parts 9
Time 58m

A memoir.

It's been 21 years. Time flashed by much quicker than I anticipated. College is wrapping up and I'm preparing to enter into the real world. But the question is, what is there waiting for me and where should I be going? Looking back on all of the lessons I've learned and experienced, I reminisce and search for meaning behind the messages. Tying all the pieces together from the very beginning may help me understand where I should go from here. I stand at the edge of tomorrow, waiting to be called to my purpose. But what will that purpose be? 

"You have two choices. You can either look at yourself in the mirror and be okay with staying at rock bottom, or you can look at yourself and say, 'this isn't who I want to be anymore,' and work to build yourself up into the greatest you that you've ever seen"All Rights Reserved

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