A Heart's Struggle
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"You know when your drowning you don't actually inhale right before you black out. It's like no matter how much your freaking out, the instinct to not get any water in is so strong. That you won't open your mouth until you feel like your head is exploding. But when you finally do let it in, that's when it stops hurting its not scary anymore. Its actually kind of peaceful." I interject my therapist.
" what does that have to do with anything?" She counters
"Ever since Erica died I felt like I was drowning. When I overdosed that's when my heart stopped hurting and I felt peaceful. To be honest I didn't want to be saved, I had already saved myself."
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Crystal meets Erica, then finds out that she has a liking for girls. They fall in love but what happens when Erica dies, how will Crystal make it through life without her? read and find out
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" YOU ARE SO ANNOYING! JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE ! WITHOUT YOU , MY LIFE WOULD BE BETTER ! " I bit my lip and tried so hard to hold back my tears , " I-I'm sorry...I-I didn't mean to be a disturbance in your li-life...I-I will distance *sniff* myself from you from today onwards..." N&J ------------------------------------------------------- " F*ck off ! I WON'T BELIEVE A SINGLE CRAP OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH ! STOPP USING ME TO SATISFY YOUR BOREDOM ! " I regretted everything ," I'm sorry...*sniff* I-I really am..." S&T ------------------------------------------------------- " Get away from me ! I REALLY HATE YOU ! " I was hurt by her words , " I'm sorry...I don't know what I did to make you hate me so much but... " M&C ------------------------------------------------------- " Am I that unlucky in love ? Why whenever I really like someone , that person like someone else ? " I was trying really hard not to show my sadness ," Can't you see me ! I'm just right beside you ! CAN'T YOU HEAR MY HEART BEATING FOR YOU ?! " I wanted to say those words but I just can't do it... M&D ------------------------------------------------------- " Will you accept me back in your life ? " * silence * " i'm sorry... " D&J Start : 2nd May 2024 End : 3rd May 2024
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