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The being of me

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Always wanted to know how one depressed person thought? Well here you have my story to read!
Especially made for those who are struggling or just curious. Will update. 

Here is how I've been going through things and dealt and still are dealing with things. This book is a true based story of my own life. 
I hope with sharing my story I can help people and make a communitie where we can help eachother so feel free to message me, also if you have questions. Please share this story because I hope other people can see this and know they are not alone!

Do not read if you think you will be bad influenced by this book and with that a 
Warning: Contains depression, eating disorder, sickness, slight mention of self harm and suicide. I will put above the chapter what is in the chapter as a warning.All Rights Reserved

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Depression, anxiety, EDs, and other mental health issues. by Esperanza5404

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Pieces of Me. by beautiful_wish

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all the things I never got to tell you. by SidTheSloth0615

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Noah (Obsessions in Overdrive #1)

I've always had a feeling that I would die young. Ever since I started pondering on deaths door I've had this feeling. I could care less about the hell and heaven shenanigans, but death. I want it. The end of my life. I want to be in my suit, in my coffin, in the ground and my soul to be gone. I've been waiting for 16 years, yet no sign of death opening his door no matter how many times I ring his doorbell. Yeah, I enjoy thinking about my end. Especially at moments like this... * #1 physical #1 cuteguys #1 addiction #2 self-esteem * Started: 7 November 2022 Finished: 18 April 2024