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a hellacious miracle

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Reads 4,700
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Parts 9
Time 52m

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while dealing with a drug addiction, spencer reid decided to take his own life, as what he thought would be an escape from his pain.  
two years later, when on a case, the team thinks they've found their beloved boy genius, but he is far from the man they once knew. 
could a miracle have happened on that traumatic night? and if so, is it a miracle from heaven or a miracle from hell? 

⚠️ TW: 
- death 
- suicidal thoughts and actions
- self-harm 
- homicide
- kidnapping and torture 
- drug use and addiction

in general - this story is dark.
so, if you're in a bad place with mental health or if any of the mentioned trigger warnings may affect you - please don't risk reading this story. 
the last thing i would want is my writing negatively affecting someone's mental health! 
and if nobody has told you yet today, i love and appreciate you and am so, so glad you are here <333

ALSO this story moves fast because i'm an impatient motherfucker (it's a semi-tolerable plot though... so enjoy bbys!)All Rights Reserved

aaronhotchner addiction angst bau comfort criminalminds derekmorgan dilaudid drugaddiction drugs emilyprentiss fanfiction hope hurt jenniferjareau penelopegarcia sad spencerreid suicide suicideattempt

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Unbroken Souls (Spencer Reid x Reader POV) by Crim-swiftie-minds

There are moments in life that you work so hard for, things your younger self couldn't even imagine you doing... and when those moments arrive, what do you do with them? After joining the Victim Services Branch of the FBI in Quantico, it's been a dream to interact with the BAU and assist a case of theirs. Your lifestyle of late nights and overworking yourself keep you single despite this loneliness you refuse to acknowledge. But when you're constantly reminded of how quickly life can shatter around your feet, leaving you bare and bleeding as you try to put the pieces back together as neatly as you can... only for life to never be the same again, you start to feel it a little more. When the call finally comes, your work pulls you into a case the BAU is tackling, and while it caught you a little off guard, you walk away from the case with something more. Spencer has never shown vulnerability until you came around, and then things changed. From innocent comments to passionate nights, your world shifts as your two souls collide into one. *Disclaimer/Trigger Warning: this story is a work of fiction building off of information gathered from the series Criminal Minds and my own experiences within social service work. This story will contain mature topics such as addiction, mental health, suicide (past tense), trauma, detailed intimacy (idk if I'm qualified to deem this smut, so you be the judge), intercourse, and other topics readers may feel uncomfortable with.

Spencer Reid Took My Life by halababes

This day had started out so normal, so usual. Meet up with Spencer, talk, laugh... maybe some other things, but somehow now your standing in his apartment and he's just laughing in your face, degrading you, and not in a fun way. "Y/n you are so fucking boring" You tried to walk away, but Spencer grabs your arm and stops you, looking deep into your eyes. You feel your heart start to race, knowing that whatever comes out of his mouth is going to change things. " Hey, I'm going to be honest with you, because no one else will. " " Fine" You felt the tears start to build-up "Any guy who says he's interested in you beyond just fucking you... is full of shit" And the tear fell as she turned away.

broken love |s.reid| by jjnreidsdaughter

"do you think it was easy watching you fall in love with her? you think my heart wasn't broken when i found out you two were getting married? i stood there, controlling my micro expressions so you couldn't tell in that very moment my heart broke." just then, Spencer grabbed my shoulder, cupped my cheek, kissing me passionately before pulling me into the tightest hug. * i don't own any of the characters or anything* #14 spencerreid 1/17/21 #1 aaronhotchner 1/27/21 #4 derekmorgan 1/31/21

Ineffable - Spencer Reid by coucoumgg14

In which a girl genius meets a boy genius. "𝒲𝒽𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓈𝑜𝓊𝓁𝓈 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓂𝒶𝒹𝑒 𝑜𝒻, 𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝒶𝓂𝑒" -𝐸𝓂𝒾𝓁𝓎 𝐵𝓇𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒, "𝒲𝓊𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝐻𝑒𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈" ~Book 1~ ~Seasons 1-5~ 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘊𝘳𝘪𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴, 𝘯𝘰𝘳 𝘥𝘰 𝘐 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘊𝘳𝘪𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦. 𝘏𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴. Enjoy and leave comments! *SLOW BURN* *TW: sexual assault, abuse, murder, gore, violence, mental health, mention of suicide, and addiction* !SPOILERS FOR SEASONS 1-5!

I wasn't like everyone else. When I was growing up, I didn't have any friends. My best friends were books. I read more than half the school library within the four years I attended high school, which I graduated from when I was 14. At the age of 22, I have an IQ of 182 and I can read 11,000 words a minute, I was "too smart" to be popular. My parents were murdered when I was a little girl, I was scarred for life, literally-the killer drug me out of the closet and carved his intials into my shoulder. The BAU solved my case. I knew I had a place there. That's where I met Spencer Reid.

Psychopathy by Ciara-Mist

(A Criminal Minds Fanfic {Dr. Spencer Reid}) Book 2 in the "Psychosis" series. As long as the members of the BAU have known her, Ciara Byrne has kept a wealth of secrets- secrets that seemed to destroy her even as she held tightly onto them. After a year of working with her, most of them had learned to let it go and had given up on ever finding out those secrets. But when Ciara goes missing, letting those secrets stay hidden may not be an option anymore. Dr. Spencer Reid thought he knew Ciara. But as the investigation goes on, more holes start to appear in the plot of her life, and he starts to realize how little he actually knew her. But what he did know was that her disappearance left him realizing how much his feelings for her had grown and that he should have told her that long ago. He knew that the key to finding her before it was too late was hidden somewhere in the secrets of her past, and when the genius set his mind to something, nothing and no one could stop him. The clock is ticking. An agent's life is on the line. And if the BAU wants to have any chance of seeing Ciara again, they'll have to work hard to unearth the secrets she fought so hard to keep buried. *Rated Mature for scenes depicting sexual assault and graphic torture

The Analyst || Spencer Reid by katluvee

You have just finished graduate school successfully double majoring in Criminal Justice and Forensic Psychology. Along the way you had picked up an internship doing paperwork for the FBI, since you planned on being an agent once graduating. Your supervisor tells you about a job opportunity as a profiler in the Behavioral Analyst Unit in Quantico, Virginia. This story is a ReaderxSpencerReid fanfic. I promise it will be more detailed and better than the description. As a fair warning there will be descriptions of gore and horrific events. I will put trigger warnings. As well as some spoilers if you have not finished the series. 🏅1- #matthewgraygubler 🏅 1- #reidxreader 🏅 1- #Solving 🏅 6- #Spence 🏅 4- #bau

The Story of Us by Jbic02

What if the Spencer Reid that the team knew wasn't the real Spencer Reid? What if there was a Spencer that nobody would even imagine when they looked at him, a Spencer that only came out around one girl? Spencer Reid was a child prodigy who had been bullied his whole life, but what would you expect when you started high school at 8 and graduate at 12. When he got to Caltech he hoped that everything would be better and he had no idea how right he was. His first day of school he met her. The most beautiful girl he had ever seen. The most beautiful girl anyone had ever seen. They quickly become friends and she unlocks a side of him he never would have guessed existed. A side that scared him but exhilarated him all at once and the best part is that she's just as smart as him, maybe even smarter. Spencer can't believe his luck...until it all fell apart. 6 years later he is going on his second year of working for the BAU and had almost forgotten his old friend. Or at least he had convinced himself he had until she waltzes in as the newest member of the BAU on his 24 birthday. Now, Spencer has no idea how to handle seeing the person he had once cared about more than anything who had abandoned him. How will he react? Why did she leave? What exactly happened between the two? And the Story of Us looks a lot like a tragedy now- Taylor Swift This story will begin in Season one and will feature some plot line and cases from the show. It is a slow burn Spencer Reid fic that will be part of a series. This story also will contain some Smut so read at your own discretion.

Criminal Minds Series Rewrite: Season Two by queenofdeansbooty

Now that you understand your place in the team, you work day in and day out to capture the bad guys and give justice fo those who seek it. However, something traumatic from your past is brought back into your life, and you don't know who you are all of a sudden. How can you do a good job when you're breaking apart inside? Most importantly, how can you be there for Spencer when he needs you the most? (I am rewriting Criminal Minds, all fifteen seasons, as if the reader was a part of the Behavioral Analysis Unit. This is a Spencer Reid x Reader fanfiction)

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Unbroken Souls (Spencer Reid x Reader POV)

There are moments in life that you work so hard for, things your younger self couldn't even imagine you doing... and when those moments arrive, what do you do with them? After joining the Victim Services Branch of the FBI in Quantico, it's been a dream to interact with the BAU and assist a case of theirs. Your lifestyle of late nights and overworking yourself keep you single despite this loneliness you refuse to acknowledge. But when you're constantly reminded of how quickly life can shatter around your feet, leaving you bare and bleeding as you try to put the pieces back together as neatly as you can... only for life to never be the same again, you start to feel it a little more. When the call finally comes, your work pulls you into a case the BAU is tackling, and while it caught you a little off guard, you walk away from the case with something more. Spencer has never shown vulnerability until you came around, and then things changed. From innocent comments to passionate nights, your world shifts as your two souls collide into one. *Disclaimer/Trigger Warning: this story is a work of fiction building off of information gathered from the series Criminal Minds and my own experiences within social service work. This story will contain mature topics such as addiction, mental health, suicide (past tense), trauma, detailed intimacy (idk if I'm qualified to deem this smut, so you be the judge), intercourse, and other topics readers may feel uncomfortable with.