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Ultimately Alone....

AlwaysRegrets__

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Reads 115
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Parts 6
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AlwaysRegrets__

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"Why are you doing this to yourself??"

"Because it sucks to be me!!"

Y\N came from nothing, She was the perfect student with perfect grades and a perfect life, that was until her awful family life and constant need to be a good example to her younger sister caused her to relapse. will a certain someone help her out of it?


I made this in 2020 - it's only public so I can laugh at how weird I was pls don't judge me thanks 🩷All Rights Reserved

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ANGEL // B.E by billieachess

"a whole ass angel," i declared. "the world does not deserve you, billie eilish." she giggled. "you don't think so?" i turned so that i was laying on my back now. i made grabby hands for her, then pulled her so that she was laying on top of me. i cupped her cheeks softly after she propped herself up a bit. "i know so. you're too good for this world; too pure." i murmured as i softly rubbed my thumb against her cheekbone. "yeah?" "yeah," i confirmed with a nod. "i'm so deadass right now. you are- you're an angel in my eyes." ============================== billie eilish gets bored of the same old 'perfect' life in heaven. she always watches the people on earth. she was envy of them. so one day, she leaves heaven to go see what earth is really like. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== disclaimer: this story is not meant to offend anybody of any religion. it's just for fun. ============================== started: 5/25/2021 ended: 6/21/2021 ============================== achieved: 🏅 #5 in #billieeilish 5/30/2021

ADDICTION // B.E by billieachess

"why do you vape? it's bad for you. you know that, right?" she asked quietly after a moment. "i know it is, but i can't stop now. it's an addiction." i shrugged, fidgeting with my novo. "why can't i be your new addiction?" she whispered, looking at me pleadingly. "that can be arranged." ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 5/1/2020 ended: 11/2/2020 ============================== achieved: ? #1 in #dontsmileatme 7/25/2020 ? #1 in #billieeilish 10/4/2020 ? #3 in #lgbtq 9/21/2020 ? #1 in #billie 9/27/2020 ? #1 in #claudia 10/17/2020 ? #17 in #lgbtpride 11/2/2020

Broken Promise////Billie Eilish by chocolatey_love

"But you said! you told me you love me!" I yelled at her tears streaming down my face. She looks at me and shrugs smiling, "I didn't mean it. I was just playing around. Wanted to know what it was like. And you know I love him." "You wrote it! 'If I love you was a promise would you break it if your honest' it was a promise! you can't break a promise!" I sob out clenching the end of my shirt tightly. "How old are you? Fucking 10? Promises are made to be broken. At least I'm being true to staying honest. Wake up y/n, this is reality. I'm not even gay! I was just curious." She says rolling her eyes. "So you chose me to play with? To hurt? You think my feelings aren't valid just because I'm a lesbian? So you play with my feelings! You're just a selfish bitch! I fucking hate you Billie!" I yell unable to control my emotions anymore. "Okay? Well if that was it, I'm leaving. Brandon's waiting for me in the car." She says with a laugh. I look up to met her ocean eyes filled with amusement and accomplishment. I look at her with disgust and walk away. Away from her, hopefully forever.

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐻𝑦𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑎 | 𝐁.𝐄. by greylish

"Its been one year and eight months since, and now all of a sudden you bring her up, why now? Out of all days?" I ask Jake sincerely. "I can see the act your putting up in front of everyone. The recklessness and all. You can get away with all of that with everyone else, but you can't fool me Bil," Jake tells me concerningly. "Why does it matter? I moved on, I have Drew. I'm not stuck on her anymore. Clearly - I've proven that by now," I say to Jake. "Do you mean that sincerely?" Jake asks me. I huff before looking back at Jake. "Yes. I do," I say to him truthfully. "Alright well. Finneas decided that it was best that I'd break the news to you," Jake says before sitting up in his seat. I look at him with my eyebrows furrowed, and suddenly a deep trench of anxiety forms in the pit of my stomach. "What is it?" I ask him. He hesitates before speaking. "Lilith is coming back to LA to work on the stage crew," Jake says. My eyes slightly widen. Fuck. ~~~ A year has gone by and now Lilith is back. Although a reunion is coming up, a year can change a person drastically, and as they say, change is inevitable. Will Lilith be able to reconnect with Billie? Or is it seemingly hopeless? Will Lilith finally remember Billie? Or did change form Lilith into a completely different person? ~~~ (This is the Second Book to the first book called 'Sweet Belladonna'. I highly recommend you go back to read the first one before continuing on reading this one, or else you'll be majorly confused.) ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, drugs, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so.

72 hours by Bleached_pubes

Aliyah's been struggling with depression for years, so she's given herself 72 hours to live, but when she meets Billie her plan becomes more difficult and her friendships start to fall apart. Will she stay for Billie or continue with her plan? ⚠️TW⚠️ Mentions of -depression -suicide -self harm -death (Starts slow but just trust the process) 🥇 -#1 billieeilish -#1 eilish -#1 blohsh -#1 billieilish -#1 les -#1 oconnell -#1 Baird -#1 Claudia -#1 billiefanfiction -#1 billiefanfic -#1 depression -#1 Billie -#2 finneas -#2 wwafawdwg -#4 hte

WRONG NUMBER // B.E by billieachess

unknown: bro i need my shIT BACK i don't have your shit lol unknown: yes you do just give it back i'm sorry but you have the wrong number ============================== in which alysia, an eighteen year old with a love for photography, receives a text from an unknown number that changes her life. or in which billie, a seventeen year old trying to breakout in the music industry, texts the wrong number. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 1/1/2020 ended: 6/10/2020 ============================== achieved: 🏅#1 in #billieeilish 6/15/2021 🏅#3 in #billie 3/15/2020 🏅#1 in #lesbian 5/15/2020 🏅#1 in #girlxgirl 4/22/2020 🏅#1 in #bisexual 5/9/2020

neighbors by Raydin99

✨gxg✨ House sitting during a pandemic can have its perks when you find out Billie Eilish lives next door. Adult content. Adult language. Drug use. Alcohol consumption. Suicide. Assault. Violence. ***Its winter break 2021. Holy shit Billie is 20!!!! I noticed a lot of people reading this right now. SO I just wanted to say that; I wrote this almost 2 years ago. I was a "hey mamas." It was the first story I ever put out/wrote which was scary as fuck. The first few chapters are cringy as fuck to me but I don't have the energy to edit it right now. Be nice, damn! Oh yeah, thanks for reading***

My Unrecognizable Girl - B.E. by areyou_agoodgirl

This is the second book in the My Girl series - "Why did you end things the way that you did?" I ask, genuinely wanting to know. It never made sense to me. I never got a proper explanation. She sighs and takes a minute before she answers. "What else did you expect from me? I was getting tired of lying. I didn't want to feel like something that you had to keep hidden. It made me feel unimportant." I sigh and bite my lip. "I never wanted you to feel that way. I just didn't know what else to do," I say, trying to explain myself. "Yes, you did. You just didn't give a fuck," she says, getting up and walking away. I sigh and lean against the wall. What do I do now? - Will have smut, drugs and alcohol, and assault warnings. Includes foul and suggestive language. - This book is set in the future and is mostly in Billie's POV - Started: 09/23/2024 Finished: 10/02/2024 - Book One: My Favorite Girl Book Two: My Unrecognizable Girl Book Three: My Sentimental Girl Book Four: My Unforgettable Girl

𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 | 𝑩.𝑬 by bils_lil_ilomilo

~𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒚? 𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒎 𝒊? 𝒐𝒉 𝒊𝒕 𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒏𝒊𝒄𝒆, 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒕𝒘𝒊𝒄𝒆~ - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - It's been almost 2 and a half years since Lynx last saw Billie. Lily hasn't responded to any of the millions of phone calls, texts, or desperate DMs from her ex and would like to keep it that way. But it's hard to ignore someone when you bump into them in real life. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒕𝒐𝒐 '𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 | 𝑩.𝑬'

Annoyed b.e by Lucifer_Knows

Billie is very troubled kid who gets into a lot of fights and was expelled from her old school, she moves into a new neighborhood and moves to a new school but she meets a girl that changes her for the better. Or does her life get worse, not because of the girl, but because of her... "God you're annoying" G!p

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐵𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 | 𝐁.𝐄. by greylish

"You've never listened to my music before? What the fuck, how?" Billie asked confused. "As I said, I just never got a chance to listen to it I guess," I replied sheepishly chuckling, rubbing the back of my neck nervously. "Well, that changes today," Billie said surprised but excited. She got up from the couch anxiously and grabbed my hand, causing me to get up from the couch and follow her, still hand in hand. ~~~ Can a Celebrity/Singer-Songwriter really fall in love with a roadie? Can somebody really fall in love with a nobody? ~~~ AU (Alternate Universe); Though some characters are real, this is fiction. Keep that in mind. Will contain explicit language, depression, anxiety episodes, violence, smoking, drinking, trauma, and real-life events that occur. +18 Votes and Comments help me a ton, so please feel free to do so. ~~~ Rankings: #1 on #roadie ; 10/26/20 #1 on #patrickoconnell ; 12/25/20 #1 on #maggiebaird ; 12/28/20 #1 on #messages ; 12/30/20 #1 on #touring ; 6/15/21 #1 on #finneas ; 7/10/22 #3 on #tour ; 4/1/22 #3 on #billie ; 12/02/23 #5 on #singer-songwriter ; 12/21/20 #7 on #billieeilish ; 12/21/20 #7 on #messaging ; 12/30/20

TROUVAILLE // B.E by billieachess

trouvaille /tro͞oˈvī/ noun something lovely discovered by chance ============================== ag reid was doing perfect. she was in her sophomore year of college, she's had a a girlfriend for almost seven months, she has amazing friends. she's living a dream. then she stumbles into billie eilish; a short, rude girl who wants to be anywhere but college. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 4/4/2021 ended: 5/6/2021 ============================== achieved: 🏅#1 in #eilish 4/18/2021 🏅#2 in #billie 4/30/2021 🏅#14 in #billieeilish 6/5/2021 🏅#12 in #lesbian 6/9/2021 🏅#3 in #wlw 6/9/2021

You're Supposed To Be//Billie Eilish by its_yourfavgirl

"oh my god, help. i'm dead. her eyes. her eyes, dude." ----- obviously willow had heard of the famous billie eilish already, i mean, how could you not. but until then she'd never really cared who that eilish-girl was. scarred from her past, willow liked the new feeling of being appreciated and soon falls for the singer. although billie herself, has struggles to come clear with her own and new feelings for the other girl. are they supposed to be? ----- - strong language - brief mentions of suicide and depression - smut ----- achieved: 2 in #lesbian (april 2022) 4 in #gxg (july 2022) 2 in #billieeilish (august 2022) 1 in #wlw (august 2022) 1 in #concert (december 2022) 3 in #billie (march 2023) 1 in #finneas (april 2023)

My Favorite Girl - B.E by areyou_agoodgirl

This is the first book of the My Girl series - "Say it," I said, getting on top of her, and smiling down at her. "Say what?" She asked me, a smile on her face. I gently caressed my thumb along her cheekbone, looking longingly into her eyes. "You know what," she just looked at me. "Come on, I know you want to say it," she tilted her head slightly. "But would you say it back?" My mouth fell open, but I didn't say anything. She let out a small sigh and looked away from me. "That's what I thought." - Will have smut, drugs and alcohol, and assault warnings. Includes foul and suggestive language. - This story will mostly be told in only Billie's POV and does jump back and forth between past and present, and a little bit of the future, retelling a part of the story that already happened. - Started: 09/15/2024 Finished: 10/01/2022 - Book One: My Favorite Girl Book Two: My Unrecognizable Girl Book Three: My Sentimental Girl Book Four: My Unforgettable Girl

Logan by braindeadwriter06

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

ma maison b.e by bilsnikes

Billie is 21 and has finally graduated college and has never really settled in one place. While working on music she heads for a fresh start away from her family to grow and be her own person in NYC. What happens when 25-year-old Salomé is tired of her job but wants to make Billie's journey a little more fun while falling in love and doing what she loves? "I don't think I would be any good without you, you're ma maison and I hope you know how special you are." (this is a requested book due to the fact people make ff about Billie being killers, thugs, drug dealers, etc and it can get very repetitive and creepy. the drama will be limited to little or no at all. contains triggering topics, descriptive sex scenes, language, and drug use which might not be suited for some viewers. SubBillie (g!p) cover art: @bilsnikes 🥉in claudia 9/16/2022 🥈in claudia 9/20/2022 🥉in billieeilish 9/21/2022 🥉in billiesub 10/2/2022 🥉 in dontsmileatme 10/5/2022 🥇in billieeilishpiratebaridoconnell 6/30/2023

𝗞𝗶𝗱𝗻𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗱 (ℬ𝒾𝓁𝓁𝒾ℯ ℰ𝒾𝓁𝒾𝓈𝒽) [𝗖𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗱 2020] by YuhMonopolyCardi

"Do you really hate me that much that you cant even ride with me?" She asked. I sighed. "I dont hate you, I just get annoyed by you. . ." _______________________________________________ "If I ride with you will you shut up?" "I cant promise that mama's, but I can be a little less annoying if you do." She said and I sighed. I didnt trust riding with her, but I also didnt wanna go home soaked from the rain. "Fine, but dont try anything funny. . ." _______________________________________________ "Hello?" "Did claudia answer your call? Did she pick you up?" "No she didnt, I caught a ride with. . .someone else." "And who would that be. . ?" _______________________________________________ "Um billie, where the fuck are we going?" "To your house babygirl." "This isnt the way to my house though." "Its a short cut, relax mama's." "No! The directions I was giving you WAS the short cut to my house!" I said getting irritated as she pulled into an area that I was completely unfamiliar with. "Billie, where the fuc-" was the last thing I remembered saying before she put a white cloth to my face causing me to black out completely. She chuckles. "Sweet dreams, kitten. . ." _______________________________________________ I woke up. But my vision was blurred by my tears that I tried to blink away. I wanted to move. But my arms and legs had no feeling in them. It was all coming back to me now. Claudia, the party, Billie- Billie. _______________________________________________ She grabs a hold of my neck. "Now, listen to me and listen good princess. Incase you have forgotten, I own you now, and the only way you're gonna get to see your precious family and friends again, is if I send your body in a casket to them. Now, do you understand?" I had no choice. I belonged to her now. I wince quickly nodding my head as she lets out a deep chuckle. "Such a good little girl you are, now you get a reward for being so obedient. . ."

Breathing you |b.e by mamamilkers333

I was an addict but I never thought I would get addicted to you, but as soon as our eyes meet I was stuck, blinded by your beauty. I knew life would end with you. Trigger warnings Drug-, alcohol abuse, overdose, suic!de, self harm, body image

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ANGEL // B.E cover

ADDICTION // B.E cover

Broken Promise////Billie Eilish cover

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐻𝑦𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑎 | 𝐁.𝐄. cover

WRONG NUMBER // B.E cover

neighbors cover

My Unrecognizable Girl - B.E. cover

𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 | 𝑩.𝑬 cover

Annoyed b.e cover

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐵𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 | 𝐁.𝐄. cover

TROUVAILLE // B.E cover

You're Supposed To Be//Billie Eilish cover

My Favorite Girl - B.E cover

ma maison b.e cover

𝗞𝗶𝗱𝗻𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗱 (ℬ𝒾𝓁𝓁𝒾ℯ ℰ𝒾𝓁𝒾𝓈𝒽) [𝗖𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗱 2020] cover

Breathing you |b.e cover

ANGEL // B.E

"a whole ass angel," i declared. "the world does not deserve you, billie eilish." she giggled. "you don't think so?" i turned so that i was laying on my back now. i made grabby hands for her, then pulled her so that she was laying on top of me. i cupped her cheeks softly after she propped herself up a bit. "i know so. you're too good for this world; too pure." i murmured as i softly rubbed my thumb against her cheekbone. "yeah?" "yeah," i confirmed with a nod. "i'm so deadass right now. you are- you're an angel in my eyes." ============================== billie eilish gets bored of the same old 'perfect' life in heaven. she always watches the people on earth. she was envy of them. so one day, she leaves heaven to go see what earth is really like. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== disclaimer: this story is not meant to offend anybody of any religion. it's just for fun. ============================== started: 5/25/2021 ended: 6/21/2021 ============================== achieved: 🏅 #5 in #billieeilish 5/30/2021