The suicide's guide to assertion
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Ultima pubblicazione sab, ott 4, 2014
I have been drawn to suicide many times, for many reasons I will not explain here, yet I have always drawn back from actual consummation - because I was afraid - mmm - no; because I feared punishment from a nasty god - ahhhh - possibly; because I am insatiably curious and this life, this current emanation called more powerfully than the Dark - yes, yes, I think so.
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