“There’s something wild about this city, Riley. Something you may never quite understand. It’s alive. Alive and roaring. It’s a bloody monster. A beast that just consumes and never sleeps. It even has a heart, veins, and the like. You can hear its heartbeats from all the way back home. The people inside? Well they’re like nicotine streaming through its veins. They make its heart and lungs darker than the night. Sure, it’s dying. Slowly, but surely. Just don’t let your guard down. It’s always watching.”
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She had waited her turn. She had waited, obediently, for the last seventeen years.
There was less than a month to go. Thirty days until she could finally get that one-way ticket to bliss.
It would all be worth it too. No more homework. No more dress codes. No more rules. Just endless parties, gourmet food, cute boys, you name it.
And the best part. She could leave her whole life behind and just start over. Riley had nothing to fear. She couldn’t wait really. Her past did nothing but haunt her anyway. Her brother did visit sometimes, in her dreams that is. At least he didn’t bother her while she was awake.
Or so she thought.
After four years, he shows up at her doorstep.
It was going to be one hell of a month.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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