How can you tell your ex that you're depressed when he already died of the same case?
How can a psychologist be mentally unstable even though he/she supposed to cure one?
Leanne always dreamed to get out of the asylum. Yes, she has cancer, and she has depression. Depression is not the side effect of her cancer. It's the side effect of her dying. She always wanted to say alot of things to her ex, she loves him 'till now, but she couldn't, and she would never be able to tell him, because he's already dead.
Erika always dreamed to get out of the asylum, but she couldn't, cause the strings of the asylum were attached to her. It's not because she's depressed, but because she's a nurse at the asylum. She suffers the exact pain as she aids her patients. It was as if she was having this deep connection between her patients. She has a boyfriend named Benzar, and like Leanne, she has alot of things to say to his boyfriend. But she couldn't. Not because he's dead, but because he's too busy.
Leanne wrotes her thoughts on her notebook. It helped her clear her thoughts when nobody's with her. Erika records her voice on a recorder that her patient gave her. It helped her clear her thoughts when nobody's listening to her rants. They both record everything they felt, and everything they wanted to say to their beloved. It was the post scripts of their feelings. The tiny secrets of their little sensitive hearts. After all, nobody listens, just their diaries.
This book is written in Filipino.
Warning: This contains depressive scenes.
dumating kana ba sa punto na, yung sakit sa dibdib mo hindi mo na kaya, yung kahit tulog ka ramdam na ramdam mo yung sakit, naranasan mo na ba na mag sindi ng basang posporo? yung kahit anong gawin mo hindi na talaga mag aapoy? naranasan mo na rin ba na mag makawa para hindi ka nya iwan?... hindi mo kasi alam kung hangag saan mananatili yung sakit, kung kaylan hihinto at mapapagod yung utak mo kakaisip, di mo na alam kung makakabangon ka pa ba . Isang araw hindi mo na maibalik yung dating masayang ngite sa mga labi nyo, yung alam mo na kung gaano kalayo ang distansya sa pagitan niyo kahit kaharap mo lang siya, yung napapatingin ka sakanya pero hindi mo na makita yung dating minahal mo sa taong yun , para na siyang lumang kanta , kabisado mo na yung lyrico pero hindi mo na kinakanta.
"He will always be the reason why i've stayed."
Ps: di ko alam kung matatapos ko bang isulat to.