I'll hold you up. (A phan story)

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(Trigger warning for self harm, suicide, panic attacks, and hospitals.) 
A story about two guys, their friendship, and getting through stuff. 
(Lol, I can describe stuff.)All Rights Reserved

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Phil always knew he loved Dan Howell... but he had no idea that Dan Howell had always loved him to. As soon as they kiss for the first time, their lives get more complicated then they could ever imagine... I didn't make the cover, credit to whoever did TRIGGER: (Almost) Self harming in one chapter

The Hospital Meet (Phan) by panicbecausephan

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"i want you to kill me." -- the one where dan is suicidal and phil is homicidal.

An Angel in Disguise//Phan by roxylove50435

Phil has just moved to a new school. His has a loving mother, but his father is bi-polar. One minute he's happy and the next he's beating Phil to the ground. Phil gets bullied at school. He even gets beaten up occasionally. There's is a gang that usually beats him up, but there's one boy in that gang that doesn't beat Phil up. Who is this boy and how does he feel about Phil? WARNING: self harm, abuse, mentions of rape, depression, and possibly other triggering things. If these things could be triggering then please don't read my story. You are way more important than this story.

Just Stay (Phan Fiction) by nopretendingnow

When Dan finally confesses his feelings for Phil, the older man reacts perfectly, however their jobs pull them apart and Dan struggles to cope without his best friend and lover. Includes Phan, Kickthestickz and Lemma as well as an array of OC's (one of which is based off of Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter) *trigger warnings* swearing, boyxboy, self-loathing, self-harm, depression, anxiety, suicide

Dan. Kind of there, kind of not. Mostly just sad and lonely. Phil. New at school. They say opposites attract, like magnets. Don't they? (I'm in the process of re-writing this so if you see variations in quality please bear with me) *TRIGGER WARNING* Depression, self harm, mentions of suicide.

The Wrong Way Around [Phan] by PurebloodDalek7

Everyone knows that Dan is the most likely one to have depression, and Dan is most likely to be gay, and Dan is just not as amazing as Phil. But what if everyone who thought all those things had it the wrong way around...? Yes, I know, I suck at descriptions Trigger warning: well, actually, I'm not totally sure exactly what's going to be in this, but there'll be suicide stuff and self harm and probably more. Just don't read it if you think you shouldn't. (PS The date at the bottom is lying, I finished this sometime around August of 2017 and started it near the end of 2015, which means it's kind of old and honestly I'm definitely not proud of it but people do seem to like it so I'm not taking it down)

my happy little pill | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan Howell and Phil Lester have said over and over that "Phan" is not real, and they have never been in a relationship together. They swear it; not even once. But behind the YouTube videos, BBC 1 radio shows and YouNows, what do Dan and Phil do in their private time? Are the fan-theories closer to the truth than Dan and Phil would like to even admit? With so much information about their lives available on the Internet, can they be allowed to keep one little secret? WARNING: CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, THEMES OF SUICIDE & SELF HARM. IT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS. Note: Not all images used in this story are made by me, and credit goes to those who made them.

Complicated ~ Phan

Phil always knew he loved Dan Howell... but he had no idea that Dan Howell had always loved him to. As soon as they kiss for the first time, their lives get more complicated then they could ever imagine... I didn't make the cover, credit to whoever did TRIGGER: (Almost) Self harming in one chapter

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