I'll hold you up. (A phan story)
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Last published Sat, Oct 24, 2015
(Trigger warning for self harm, suicide, panic attacks, and hospitals.)
A story about two guys, their friendship, and getting through stuff.
(Lol, I can describe stuff.)
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