I hate looking at myself and realizing that I don't like what I see. I hate looking back at things I did and wondering why I was like that. Every day there's something wrong. Just one trivial thing that can make me unhappy for just a moment. It's like it's not even possible to have a day without one bad feeling. It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you want. I do not own the academy series or the songs contained within this story. Please give all credits to their rightful owners. Based on the book series by C.l Stone. Possible Trigger Warnings * Self-harm * Excessive alcohol/drug use (under the age of 21) *Sexual Assault * Consensual sex scenes (potentially)