afraid of myself, afraid of my memories

This is a fanfic about Shoyo Hinata from Haikyuu.
Hinata Shoyo is just like the sun. He smiles always. But what if it is all fake? What if he just wants that everybody thinks that he's happy? Nobody knows about Hinata Shoyo's past. But what happens when somebody finds out?
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This will contain self-harm, depression and some other things like that. There will also be some Yaoi smut.
--->Don't like, don't read!
English is not my native language. So please don't be mad with me when there will be some grammar mistakes. But if there are some mistakes in that story than just tell me. This is my first fanfiction.
I don't own the characters.
The pictures that I will use are not from me.