Heaven On The Outside Hell On The Inside

My life on the outside,for the most part has always seemed to most to be "perfect". Some of those closet to me have seen further than that,but never been able to truly know or see the hell I've been through.They see the looks,the money,the popularity,the material things.But never the darker truths & horror that has made up my life.I've always been too ashamed & scared to truly share my whole story.Well,this is it.There may be some inconsistencies/contradictions,but that doesn't make any of this any less true.Some things are too painful & I have repressed them.Some things are hazy,maybe my subconscious has blocked some of it out.My past is painful beyond words.I've been through abuse,eating disorders,selfharm,violence,drugs,prostitution,attempted suicide & so much more.This is a painful reminder that not all that glitters is gold.I've never been this open with anyone & this is terrifying but now I feel it's time to share my story.My story is not over,it's ongoing, but this is it so far.