Chasing the Sun
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MatureOngoing5m
Last published Mon, Jan 4, 2021
I never imagined that I would end up here. A shell of a human, with a mind that had wandered off into a nightmare that it couldn't wake up from. This book is me crawling my way through and waking myself up. This book is a collection of conversations that I have with myself daily. It is a journey to the before, through the middle, and into the after. This book is proof that even when all odds are against you, healing is possible.
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