A well-known streamer under the alias "Badboyhalo" is often viewed as the happy and bubbly one of groups. Is that the truth, or just a persona put up? What happens behind the scenes; what happens once the stream ends? Please be mindful of the content and triggers in this book. Proceed at your own caution and will. TW// self harm, suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, self deprecation -disclaimer: story is discontinued [I previously stated I hated unfinished stories, but I have fallen out of MCYT completely and have no motivation to finish the book at all, thank you for reading though, and sorry if this was disappointing]