This is about stuff in my actual life and things I actually feel these have some dark tones mention of suicide mention of cutting and dark tones like that so if that's a trigger to you please do not read these
I've always had a feeling that I would die young. Ever since I started pondering on deaths door I've had this feeling. I could care less about the hell and heaven shenanigans, but death. I want it. The end of my life.
I want to be in my suit, in my coffin, in the ground and my soul to be gone. I've been waiting for 16 years, yet no sign of death opening his door no matter how many times I ring his doorbell. Yeah, I enjoy thinking about my end. Especially at moments like this...
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#2 self-esteem
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Started: 7 November 2022
Finished: 18 April 2024