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When The Lights Go Out

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"If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? Or speed up?"

- Chuck Palahniuk.

Death. It's a thought. And then it becomes a thing. An actual thing. It lives inside of you, and you try to lock it away, but it's there in that box in your brain that you thought you had buried away, but death...well it cannot be killed, or forgotten. It cannot be contained. It begins to feed on your thoughts. And if you are lucky, it doesn't affect your decisions. For some it's a reminder that comes up maybe once a blue moon, and then away it goes. For some, it's the alarm you set when you have to wake up but you don't want to.

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Festus Clover is a young non binary teenager who doesn't believe she has anything to live for.  But then she meets Cecilia Rose, a girl who doesn't care about the pronouns she uses. And who sits with her for lunch and doesn't leave her. And suddenly Festus discovers friendship and love and life. 

TRIGGER WARNING: 

Self Harm is mentioned. 

Mental Health Issues are addressed.All Rights Reserved

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Focus On The Light : friendships, love & family {On-going} by CissyItsMe

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Lethal Deceit by TheminiBendyplush

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Gladiator [K.Zoldyck X fem!Reader] (HxH) by ShuzukuHigami

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Life In a Shell (UNEDITED) by anonymous_Kit-Kat

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I See you, Y/N. (Emily Prentiss X Reader) by _healingmyself_

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