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When The Lights Go Out

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Parts 14
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"If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? Or speed up?"

- Chuck Palahniuk.

Death. It's a thought. And then it becomes a thing. An actual thing. It lives inside of you, and you try to lock it away, but it's there in that box in your brain that you thought you had buried away, but death...well it cannot be killed, or forgotten. It cannot be contained. It begins to feed on your thoughts. And if you are lucky, it doesn't affect your decisions. For some it's a reminder that comes up maybe once a blue moon, and then away it goes. For some, it's the alarm you set when you have to wake up but you don't want to.

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Festus Clover is a young non binary teenager who doesn't believe she has anything to live for.  But then she meets Cecilia Rose, a girl who doesn't care about the pronouns she uses. And who sits with her for lunch and doesn't leave her. And suddenly Festus discovers friendship and love and life. 

TRIGGER WARNING: 

Self Harm is mentioned. 

Mental Health Issues are addressed.All Rights Reserved

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Blood and Thunder by KyleWilliamUrban

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Lethal Deceit by TheminiBendyplush

"As her own gaze followed their line of sight, she finally saw what had caused such a reaction from the blonde woman earlier. Clover's eyes widened in horror as she looked at the screen, which displayed a picture of a dismembered boy, in a tangle of his own limbs and a puddle of his own blood." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TRIGGER WARNING FOR CURRENT PROGRESS: Part 21: on-page vomiting Part 23: on-page suicide (stabbing) part 25: off-page potential implied sexual assualt and on-page murder Please take your mental health into account when reading stories that may cause psychological damage. Mental health is important, and I do not wish for anyone to become distraught when reading something unpleasant. Please let me know if there are more triggers i need to add to the list or if there are scenes you wish for me to remove due to mental health or being offensive. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In a chilling game of survival, ten strangers find themselves lured into an abandoned building and pitted against each other in a deadly contest. As they struggle to identify a killer among them, tensions rise and secrets are unveiled. But as the games progress, the stakes become higher and inner thoughts start to come to light, revealing hidden motives and dangerous alliances. Can Clover Rosa and the others survive long enough to unveil the truth, or will their own demons prove to be their downfall? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ approx. word count: 54.6k

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Whispers of our Hearts (gxg) by thegayykid

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What He Never Said ✔️ by neurotick

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