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When The Lights Go Out

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"If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? Or speed up?"

- Chuck Palahniuk.

Death. It's a thought. And then it becomes a thing. An actual thing. It lives inside of you, and you try to lock it away, but it's there in that box in your brain that you thought you had buried away, but death...well it cannot be killed, or forgotten. It cannot be contained. It begins to feed on your thoughts. And if you are lucky, it doesn't affect your decisions. For some it's a reminder that comes up maybe once a blue moon, and then away it goes. For some, it's the alarm you set when you have to wake up but you don't want to.

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Festus Clover is a young non binary teenager who doesn't believe she has anything to live for.  But then she meets Cecilia Rose, a girl who doesn't care about the pronouns she uses. And who sits with her for lunch and doesn't leave her. And suddenly Festus discovers friendship and love and life. 

TRIGGER WARNING: 

Self Harm is mentioned. 

Mental Health Issues are addressed.All Rights Reserved

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Blood and Thunder by KyleWilliamUrban

You've just woken in the woods, away from everything you know. You're dazed and confused, unable to comprehend what's just happened. As you are coming to, images flash before your eyes of the last few days. Your parents were taken by the police, you were forced to run, to leave everything behind, to save yourself and your sister. But she isn't here. You panic and look around, you stop. You remember. She too was taken, you are alone. For now. This is what happened to Alexander, his life has just been turned upside down. The year is 2415, the world has both evolved and devolved. It isn't how people imagined. Flying cars, robots in every house, telekinetic pencils. No, they are only in comic books. Self driving cars. No robots in houses, but workhouses instead. Telekinetic pencils... that's possible, if you are gifted with the power of telekinesis. There are dark truths hidden behind closed doors, that only few know. Truths that if they got out, would bring the downfall of the government. A government that has been deceiving people for generations. But they haven't been as careful as they thought, because 100 years ago, one guy found out their secrets. 100 years ago, one guy started the rebellion that would bring about the end. From burning books, rewriting history and breaking human rights, this government will stop at nothing to make it seem that they are doing good. But people have had enough, the secret came out before. It's only a matter of time until it happens again. This time by a group of people that no one expected. Together they work to find out the truth, but things have gotten worse over the last century and this may not only bring around the downfall of the government. Armed only the powers they were born with, the group do everything they can to discover the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. But many have tried and failed, do they really stand a chance? Alexander doesn't think so, but his main concern is finding his sister, Rosia.

Life In a Shell (UNEDITED) by anonymous_Kit-Kat

Life was so much easier as a kid, no worry in the world, just live in the moment. The older I got, the more I realized I was almost living in a Shell, a shell of my own problems. My life seemed to fall apart every single time I was happy.it was like everything I touched, died inside and turned to dust. I am Cally... Cally Rose. I never thought my life would turn out this way , especially since I had very little recollection of what happened to me. All I was told was people in this world, lie, use,hurt, bully, hate and resent. But you know the saying... It's all fun and games... Until someone gets hurt. ~~~~IMPORTANT~~~~~~ ***This story deals with amnesia and mental health. In more detail this story deals with the recovery of depression, suicide, self harm, amnesia, bullying , relationships and divorce. ***ALTHOUGH THE THEME OF THIS STORY IS RECOVERY FROM SUCH SITUATIONS, IT DOES NOT FEATURE GRAPHIC DESCRIPTIONS OR IMAGES OF SUCH TOPICS! WHEN SUCH TOPICS HAVE BEEN REFERENCED OR LIGHTLY SPOKEN ABOUT, IT HAS BEEN FILTERED TO ENSURE AGE APPROPRIATE AND SAFE CHAPTERS. CHAPTERS IN WHICH AREAS MAY BE SENSITIVE , HAVE BEEN GIVEN A NOTICE BEFORE HAND. ******* Colab Series : Book 1 COPYRIGHTS TO : @anonymous_kit-Kat NO PLAGIARISM

Altered by LuellaOpal

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What She Left Behind ✔️ by neurotick

"I'm assuming that little speech was meant for me?" "It was meant for everyone." "But mostly me. Is it because I called her selfish earlier? Are you still hung up on that?" "I'm not hung up on anything, Gemma." "Then why would you go up there and say that?" I demand, my voice rising above a whisper. "Of all days, why would you choose today to publicly humiliate me?" "Today isn't about you, Gemma," Bowie says, catching me by surprise. "Today is about Raelyn, and the fact that we all failed her." ----------- 𝕲𝖊𝖒𝖒𝖆 𝕭𝖊𝖆𝖚𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖙's life is turned upside down the day she gets the call that her best friend, Raelyn, took her own life. No note, no explanation, just an empty bottle of pills atop a mountain of unanswered questions. As far as Gemma knew, Raelyn wasn't depressed. Why did she do this? Why did she kill herself? While searching for answers, she forms a bond with Evangeline, Raelyn's six-year-old daughter. Gemma soon learns that Raelyn didn't just leave behind a daughter, though. She also left a stack of secrets so high that Gemma fears she never knew her best friend at all. She's so desperate to find out the truth that she may get more than she bargained for. After all, you can't un-ring a bell. BOOK ONE IN THE RAE OF LIGHT SERIES. Copyright © 2019 Briana Eliza. All rights reserved. 50k - 60k words Awards: 2019 Summer Zodiac Awards - 2nd Place ⭐️ 2019 Talent Awards - 1st Place ⭐️ 2020 Winter Rose Awards - Honorable Mentions 2020 Belle Amé Awards - Runner Up

Stalked By A Serial Killer by NotCrazyYaJustStupid

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The Smile She Gives You by Juliaaa_k

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Blood and Thunder

You've just woken in the woods, away from everything you know. You're dazed and confused, unable to comprehend what's just happened. As you are coming to, images flash before your eyes of the last few days. Your parents were taken by the police, you were forced to run, to leave everything behind, to save yourself and your sister. But she isn't here. You panic and look around, you stop. You remember. She too was taken, you are alone. For now. This is what happened to Alexander, his life has just been turned upside down. The year is 2415, the world has both evolved and devolved. It isn't how people imagined. Flying cars, robots in every house, telekinetic pencils. No, they are only in comic books. Self driving cars. No robots in houses, but workhouses instead. Telekinetic pencils... that's possible, if you are gifted with the power of telekinesis. There are dark truths hidden behind closed doors, that only few know. Truths that if they got out, would bring the downfall of the government. A government that has been deceiving people for generations. But they haven't been as careful as they thought, because 100 years ago, one guy found out their secrets. 100 years ago, one guy started the rebellion that would bring about the end. From burning books, rewriting history and breaking human rights, this government will stop at nothing to make it seem that they are doing good. But people have had enough, the secret came out before. It's only a matter of time until it happens again. This time by a group of people that no one expected. Together they work to find out the truth, but things have gotten worse over the last century and this may not only bring around the downfall of the government. Armed only the powers they were born with, the group do everything they can to discover the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. But many have tried and failed, do they really stand a chance? Alexander doesn't think so, but his main concern is finding his sister, Rosia.