In Light We Fear

I gave the best of myself to someone who didn't have anything to lose. I didn't know how to avoid my lover's toxic and abusive flames. My lover's twisted words were like a maze inside of my head that I couldn't escape. Sadly, my lover's actions hypnotized my thoughts and paralyzed my thinking. I learned the hard way that love isn't leaning in for a kiss, and a fist meets you halfway. Love isn't being a punching bag because someone decided they wanted to beat on you today. Love isn't saying I love you just because someone wants to keep you to themselves. I tried to be there for my lover, but I learned it is impossible to fix the broken pieces when the glass has shattered. There will always be pieces that are not repairable. However, I kept going right back to the person who I needed to walk away from. I was afraid, and I wasn't brave enough to wake up from this nightmare! I made the choice to suffer when life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. Will I find the courage to know my worth and know that I deserve better than the distasteful lies that are whispered in my ears? Will I have the strength to fight my insecurities? Will, I set myself free, or will I let my love be the death of me?

"𝓢𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼, 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓼𝓽 𝓾𝓷𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓼 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓼 𝓪𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽 - 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓱𝓸𝔀, 𝓯𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓼 𝓽𝓸𝓰𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻." 𝑼𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒐𝒇 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕, 𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒖𝒏𝒓𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒍, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒐𝒚𝒂𝒍𝒕𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒅. 𝑪𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒅? 𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕: 𝒂 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔, 𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒄, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒔 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒖𝒏𝒓𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒍. 𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝑷𝒊𝒑𝒆𝒓 𝑨𝒔𝒉𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒅, 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓-𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒚𝒃𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔. 𝑩𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒖𝒏𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒍𝒔, 𝒂𝒄𝒄𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒍 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒔, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒇𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒓 𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒇 𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒎𝒂, 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒂 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒕. 𝑨𝒔 𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒅𝒆, 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔: 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕, 𝒐𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔

Ages 14+ (lesbian concepts and some profanity) This is not your everyday love story, okay? It's not a chick flick either. The events and themes within my pages have meaning, depth, truth-and most of all, reality. You are about to be taken on an adventure about a girl who's life is not like everybody else's. I look like a normal teen girl, I mean, I have hair and two eyes and two hands and feet like everybody else, but I couldn't feel more different. I have two moms, yes. Let's just get that out there before you start reading and close my diary like everyone in my life has shut me out of theirs. All I want is a normal life with normal friends who don't judge me because of my home situation. I don't even remember the last time I went on a sleepover or called somebody my age. I don't mean to be a downer, because it does get better. Life gets better. Struggles are only temporary, I know that now. And by my last words reach your eyes, I've come a long way, and have grown to see potential in myself. I'm sharing this with you because I want to make a difference. I know now that I'm not the only one in the world that feels alone. I've been there, done that, and there's more loneliness to come, but for now, I feel more prepared for it. I know how it feels to sit by yourself at lunch every day and how it feels to watch others go to prom with dates and feel like shit because you don't think you'd even have any friends to go with. Please ready my diary. I am much older now, and much more wiser, and I can't wait for you to realize the potential in yourself, too.

*previously was known as adopted into a family of bad boys* "I always got the blunt of the burden... I always took the blunt of the burden..." I pause "I made a promise and I am not going to break it... there is no way I am going to let him lay a figure Alexey or Alec" tears formed in my eyes "I always did what's best for my family... I always will" I fought back the tears not looking them in the eye "he already took my mother, he is not going to take away them" I raised my voice "I am going to do whatever it take to stop him from lay a hand on anyone I love!" I started yelling, "even if I die in process" I was quieter again, I couldn't look them in the eye "Nicole you can't--" "nothing you say! Nothing you do! is going to stop me from doing what best for my family, for the ones I love... you can't stop me... no one can" I cut of Jay and looked him in the eye, a tear rolling down my face "I thank you father for adopting us... I thank you three for excepting us, I truly do... no matter how much I have grown to love you guys, you can't stop me" another tear rolled down my cheek "I am not just protecting Alexey and Alec anymore... he knows I love you, he will hurt anyone I love" I zipped my jacket up "please let me protect the ones I love... look after Alexey and Alec for me... please..." the three hugged me, Jay was in front of me, I silently cried into his chest "Stay safe Nicole" Jay whispered "We will take care of Alexia and Alec, but we can't replace you," Kaleb whispered from my right "Promise us you will come back" Ryan looked me in the eye causing more tears to come down "I will try my best, thank you" I walked out leaving my family behind, tear streaming down my face. I am doing the right thing, I am doing what is best for them. **trust me this books gets better the more you go, more of an intro inside**

Previously named: Hot Summer Night (COMPLETELY EDITED and RENAMED) Seraphine escaped a nightmare, but Chadwick's vengeance stalks her every step, his sadistic games threatening to shatter her fragile freedom. Declan, the ex-lover she thought lost forever, is her shield, vowing to protect her and his daughter Everly from the monster's grasp. Together, they hide in a small Alabama town, their rekindled love a beacon against the darkness. But Chadwick's closer than they think, his chilling messages and deadly traps tightening the noose. As fear tests their trust, Seraphine and Declan must face their pasts-her trauma, his guilt-to save Everly and themselves. One wrong move, and they'll lose everything. Will their love survive the fight, or will Chadwick's evil claim them all? A heart-stopping thriller of love, survival, and family, where every choice could be their last.

While tortured and held captive as a prisoner of war, she became my reason to keep breathing. The force that fueled my will to fight. To survive. When I woke after the rescue to discover the life I thought I was coming home to was but a figment of my imagination, hallucinations brought about by pain, desperation, and isolation... it nearly broke me. Fifteen years since I first lost her, at last, we have a second chance. Holding her in my arms, finally feeling the warmth of her skin as she melts under my touch, is like a dream. She and her two little girls are now as essential to my existence as the air I breathe. However, just as things start falling into place, the universe steps in, threatening to take it all away. I used to think that choosing her cost me everything I'd ever loved, but now I see that in choosing her and her children, I have the chance to reclaim all that I lost. They are my salvation. My true path to redemption. Which is why I'll leave no stone unturned, why I will scorch this world to the ground if that's what it takes to save them. And when I do, I will fight to convince her once and for all they are meant to be mine, just as I was destined to be theirs. In the Broken Redemption Series, one man's vow to protect the woman he lost becomes a battle between redemption, forgiveness, and the kind of love that refuses to let go. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This is Book 3 of Lucas & Emilia's Broken Redemption arc, the emotional conclusion to their story. For the full journey, start with Book 1: Broken Vows.

"It's too much to remember everything and everyone, all pain and hurt is killing me day by day little by little. I wish I could remove all the pain and move on in my life. I wish I could find an eraser or Better a delete button, so that I could start from beginning, without any misery or pain." ......................................................................................... "Hey Eva, you know you can trust me, right? " He asked me again cupping my cheeks, I can't let him continue this. It had to stop now or it would be too late. I can't risk everyone's life specially his. If hurting him means, him being alive then I would do it without thinking. Again and again. "Eva are you even listening to me?" Noah asked moving his face closer. From this close I can even see the scar which he told me about, its just below the border line of his hair, it can be easily conceal but from this close its more real. His eyes, they are magical. I would love to look at them all the time and never get tired of looking at in them. No, I cannot do this to him, I can't be selfish, I have to do something this time. "No" I answer and walked away from him. .............................................................