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Black On White (day by day jernal)

immacrazydirectioner

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Reads 5,711
Votes 17
Parts 180
Time 6h 27m

immacrazydirectioner

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This is my legit life no lie this is my diary lol Im 14 and have super great friends more than friends like family till my dad want to move he gets a job in northern Alberta in October I have to start new first impressions I suck at. How can I fix my mess + some exclusive parts of my drama filled everyday life and boys of course who's a 14 year old with out a pretty boy to look at well you just gotta see how my eyes work all the drama of helping fights back home with out being there and finding the people to suit my life and me being the me I wanna be I'm changing to be normal not the gurl who dressed funny not caring with a bubbly legit my real life no lie this is like my diary     personality and just all around amazing child to a blan boring can anyone help me become me again all the tears and stress knowing how everyone feels and always being the feeling nurse to just a random face down the hall u may call me two faced but I guess you gotta read to see.All Rights Reserved

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