[[[all of my flaws]]][[[part ii]]]

'Lily?' He said quietly. I didn't respond. I hoped he thought I was sleeping. Even though I doubted I'd be getting much sleep. I had far too much on my mind to switch off. I was finding it so hard to concentrate on what I was supposed to be doing when I was so consumed with guilt. Every time he looked at me with those kind blue eyes, all I could think about was how much I must've hurt him. I had walked away without ever looking back, no explanation, nothing but a sorry note. How he could cope without wanting to kill me I'd never know.
I guessed the kindest thing I could do was at least stop ignoring him and stop treating him like he'd done something wrong.
'Yeah?' I eventually replied.
'I...' He began. But a long silence hung in the air, as though he was thinking what to say next. 'Good night.' He said with a sigh. Whatever it was he was going to say, I doubted it had been just 'goodnight'.
That had been my queue to speak up. But I couldn't. I was still too ashamed of what I'd done to face it.