flow: a personal journal
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“We are addicted to our thoughts. We cannot change anything if we cannot change our thinking.” -Santosh Kalwar
this is a journal that I'll be updating every once in a while, where I'll be recording any significant thoughts that come to mind. A bit like a more personal rant book. I'm going to be focusing on my struggles of social anxiety and the ways I'm dealing with shutting it down, decisions, and the future.
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