When the wall breaks

There's a mellow pounding in my heart and it burns like a lighter in the night. The smoke rises from the flame burning my eyes with sparkling tears. I don't want to feel this way, I never do anything right. No matter how hard I try, or beg whatever god is up there to take me back he won't. I've begged in a scream that burned my throat and scraped it raw, I've begged sobbing for my own sake, and I have even begged in the quietest broken voice I can manage. He wouldn't take me home, I am a puddle filled with negativity and wasted dreams. Lost morals and broken hearts never seem so new to me. I just want warmth, I want someone to tell me it's going to be fine. But sadly the world doesn't work that way. I've learned at a young age that this game isn't fair. This game I never wanted to play, I never wanted to be here. I've begged and begged why won't you take me back! If you don't want me I'll return myself maybe then you'll finally love me. I only ever wanted warmth, but sadly the world doesn't work that way.