Too many Thoughts ; Work in Progress

I have thoughts and opinions as anyone Does but UNLIKE 'anyone' I have taken advantage of what God has gifted us and American society has beaten out of us; the instincg tO read situations and people, immediately. Before thought has taken over. Perhaps brain enamel allowed for greater acuity. Perhaps not .Granted I never before beloeced in such phenomenon to the degree that it can not be undone. Like a non believer having a direct encounter with God or Christ to declare themselves otherwise. Perhaps I am blessed if blessed is knowing that if you do not choose to belIeve you'd be left amways wanting to be the way you had been before cictcunstances which crippled me were apsrt if the same circumstances whuch disalkowrd ke frim sayibg there is no such thing as SEEING. And that it is laid bare most especially when acting as the animal , the hunted who is running from hunters to save his freedom, his hide, his very life. Ubtil we know ke experience this type of trauma we may never learn to trust out most latent instincts simply because we never had to.
Most in this society would deem someone whj hasn't encountered tragedy but perhaps it is only by means of this particular pain, trauma and grief are we able to transcend our own sense of selfishness to understand that of others. Best yet when grief is subsequent to shock we realize what a natural process such is and how stopped up on trauma conscious or not, we have been.