"How long?" he asked, voice wavering. "Wh-what are you-" "HOW LONG?" He glowered down at me, eyes piercing through me, my brain, my lungs, my heart. It's as if everything stopped, holding its breath, waiting for his next move, next word, next anything. To my surprise, sleek roads of tears were running down his cheeks. He abruptly stood up, briskly walking out of the room, leaving me to wonder if this is just a dream or harsh reality.
I was in love with Gerard Way.
Not only did I lie to him, but I think I just ruined our friendship.
Great start to the weekend, Frankie.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
*****
It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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