Is Happiness Just A Word?
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  • Reads 62
  • Votes 6
  • Parts 5
  • Time 49m
Ongoing, First published Nov 23, 2020
Mature
"Have you ever drank?" 

"No," I whispered. "Does it make everyone happy like that?"

"I mean, if you're looking for happiness you won't find it in a bottle." He said quietly, watching me. 

"I..." I took a deep breath, "I want to feel happy for once." 

"You need weed then. Shit makes everything funny." I stared at him curiously, having no idea what weed was. But he didn't answer, just waited for my reply.

"I don't know what that is."

He pursed his lips, tilted his head, and then shook it, "I was going to say something like what planet are you from but I have a feeling you'll tell me you're from Mars, and I don't think I can handle that right now."

I gave him a weird look, he was trying to be funny but I just couldn't figure out how to laugh, even a fake laugh. "I'm from Pluto, actually." I said quietly. His eyes widened in fake horror, before belting out a loud laugh. 
~~~~~~

Eighteen year old Chloe Davidson is finally free. Free from her father's alcoholic rage, abuse, and neglect. But not free from the anxiety, depression, and overwhelmingly stressful new life. She finds herself completely lacking all social skills when thrown into college, just to be faced with constant reminders of back home. 

Emerson Brantley sees her on their first day, immediately recognizing her as the quiet outcast from high school. Both surprised that somehow they ended up at the same college, over eight hours away from their hometown, they also find out they are studying towards the same degree. 

Emerson's hope is to break Chloe from her shell, help her fight her demons and become the person she always wanted to be: a happy one. Little does he know, her past is beyond traumatic, and it's going to take a lot more than a friend looking to help to heal her. 

~~~
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"Is Happiness Just A Word?" contains mature content with themes such as self harm, suicide, depression, anxiety, and sexual references. Reader discretion is advised.
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