TIS #2 TRIGGER WARNING : Obsessive-Compulsive. Psychotic Thriller. Have you ever experienced incarceration? Or being tied up? Tumakas ako. Itinakas niya ako. Lumayo ako. Inilayo niya ako. Umalis ako. Sinamahan niya ako. Gusto niya ako. Mahal niya ako- mahal na mahal. It turns out that the saying 'all good boys go to heaven, but bad boys bring heaven to you' is true. That is how Darcy Baitman fell in love. He is like an angel and a demon at the same time. He always watched me wordlessly... like an angel who was always over me when I felt I needed something. Demonic, how kind of him to tempt me. The eyes are like superman's steely gaze that is hypnotic as if your soul wants to cling to him just because of how he looks. He will give you everything... everything even your dearest desire in just one fell swoop. Talagang lahat ng bagay sa kanya ay masarap-masarap... sa pakiramdam. Tipong papatayin ka niya sa sarap niyang magmahal. Kailangan namin ang isa't-isa. Ang mga kaluluwa namin ay parang patay gutom, parehas na animo'y naliligaw, uhaw na uhaw sa atensyon at kalayaan. Hanggang sa... madalas na kaming ipinagtatagpong dalawa o talagang sadyang madalas tinatagpo niya ako? Alam ko ang nararamdaman niya. Alam niya rin ang nararamdaman ko. Yan ang nararamdaman ko para sa aming dalawa. Kaya pakiramdam ko, para talaga kami sa isa't-isa. Bagay na bagay kaming dalawa. We are like a magnetic. Our pull is undeniable as ever. He never left me alone. He was with me through sadness, happiness, and madness since then. Hanggang sa nanatili kami sa isang lugar na nag-iisa at tuluyan na namin itinali ang isa't-isa. Ngayon, hindi ko na alam kung babalakin ko pa bang bumalik pa. Nakalimutan ko na rin kung saan. Nawala sa paningin ko ang mga daan, hindi ko na rin maaninagan madalas ang kalangitan. Tanging dilim. 'It's like living in a hellfire.' And I wouldn't think the person who once gave me my freedom would be the one to tie me up later. ©P I E D R A I J A D A 2022