TW: language, self harm, depression, and suicidal behavior Plot: Stan goes goth whenever Wendy dumps him and Kyle moves back to Jersey, Stan starts going through loads of depression and starts having suicidal thoughts. However, Kyle moves back to South Park and Stan feels like he should tell Kyle his feelings for him but Kyle has already found love interest to Heidi. Stan feels afraid to tell his love due to a phobia he has called Philophobia (fear of falling in love). Oof so I have been making a lot of Style art lately and it's been of this au where Stan has philophobia like me, I hope to get some attention to this Fic bc i want people to see my stories and say "Hey this is really good" or "Hey you're really good at writing" just something nice since I work really hard on my stories and because people only say I'm good at art. But I hope you enjoy if you are reading this :). (BTW there will be some other ships in the background of the story so it makes the story more interesting-)