I am the reason
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Last published Sat, Jan 3, 2015
Hi, my name's Alex and I have quite a story to tell....you probably know the popular YouTuber Dan Howell a.k.a. Danisnotonfire...this story is about how we were friends and how I hated him for several years because of what he did to my best friend. This isn't just a simple 'fangirl' story, this is what happened to me and how Dan being in my life changed it forever.
When I was 13 I had a best friend called Allie who I loved to pieces and I would have protected her with my life. Dan also went to our high school but he broke her heart and I never forgave him. For 5 years I carried on with my school life and everything I would usually do growing up, I never knew why he did that to her, to be honest I never spoke to him again after that incident.
I moved to London and I lived on my own for a while and believe it or not, when I was 13 I made a YouTube channel which became quite popular. I was invited to summer in the city to meet some subscribers, that's when everything changed.
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