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Hope
By: Kayla 

Hope is hope no matter what. 
Sometimes you hope for 
many things to come 
you hope for hope someday
you hope to come home
you hope you can make it 
But no matter what, 
hope will come to stay

This book is my first book to my life of poetry. My old account was forgotten so I can't get back to lifesucksinside so enjoy the poems and let me know what I should do about poetry. Give me ideas! I would love to hear them! My mission with these poems are to help prevent bullying and self harm to help raise awareness to society and make someone's day brighterAll Rights Reserved

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Untitled Fears by Liv1844

I was close to dying if not from my sister. I went from bitches at school to my alcoholic, addict abusing mother. Then my best friend decided he wanted stop be part of the crew that cries for me to give me another reason to live. I didn't want another one but...it feels nice. Warning: This is rated MATURE for a reason. Mentions of cutting, abuse, alcoholism, bullying, gayness, and Gacha pictures because they help me visualize my characters better. If any of these things make you uncomfortable, get the hell away from my story, no one said you had to sit here and read this. I am not a professional writer but I did try with what my pain and emotions gave me. The entirety of the story is explained over time so if you want to sit and read, be my guest. Our protagonist is Ryan and let's just say he's gonna go through hell and back.

Before You Go || √ by Fallensmiles

Previously known as 'Hope'. Completed √ "Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all the darkness" Everyone has a story. Some choose to tell while others prefer not too. Do you know the feeling of going through something that you wouldn't even want the person you dislike the most to go through? The feeling of having to put up a front, a fake smile, just so that others wouldn't worry? The feeling of not being able to tell others because you don't want to burden them with your problems? Well that's how Olivia Brown lives her life. Do you know how it feels when you care for somebody to the extent where if anything were to happen to them, you wouldn't know what to do with your life anymore? The only thing which gave William Anderson joy, his ray of hope, was gone. Will Olivia be able to show him what's it like to live life again or end up losing her own hope? -- Highest Ranks: #138 in Teen Fiction #3 in Young adult

Sad Poetry by Hastency

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Bloody Fingers, Broken Mind by my_macaroni_hurts

A book of poems and simple writings compiled of my thoughts and emotions in a virtual reality. »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» »-» TRIGGER WARNING: this book contains dark/triggering content including that of depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts/actions, sexual assault, anxiety, abuse, etc. If you struggle with any of these, then please understand that you are NOT alone and that this book is not to promote or glorify any of these things. «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« «-« REMINDER: "You may encounter many defeats but you may not be defeated." »-» Dr. Maya Angelou «-«

Heather - The Dreamy girl by Rosesarered878

A 17yrs old girl called heather goes through mental breakdown at night for the past year while no one notices and every time she gets better people around here makes her feel worse than she actually is . Then someone started appearing in here dreams that actually gave her hope , he started giving what she wanted , a hug and someone to talk to . She starts searching for that person because she was 100% sure that this person existed because she had hope . But her parents stood like a wall in front of her but she didn't stop . - Part 2 - Her depression and anxiety comes back but this time it is so much worse than what she had . She describes them but in a different way , in a way of how she feels .She tried doing something that changed her life . "It can be hard to express your feelings sometimes . You may feel like you're unable to find the right words . So through this book , I hope I can help you put your feelings into words . " ( ⚠️ WARNING ⚠️) (This book may contain words ,it may also support people that go through depression , anxiety or panic attacks )

Saving Hope by CarissaGotto

saving hope it is about a girl who goes through a number imaginable things. She dealt with the loss of her father and the remarriage she had to go through with an abusive stepfather who drank too much, she had to suffer from anxiety, depression, and ptsd. At first it was a project in middle school that me and four other friends decided to do because we all loved writing and we were learning about the world and all the mess that it was we were learning about all the bad before we got to the good. And we wanted to write about it. I had gotten abused and wrote the main thing happening in the beginning. But as I was writing over the years it took a change. I experienced loss and abuse and I felt like the whole world was crumbling around me and my mind was telling me I was alone. I started to write my story tweaked enough to where no one could tell. I put in things that wouldn't happen in real life but made a good story but the base of it was me. It doesn't have a happy ending but it has a meaning to me. I call it my brain vomit and my novel baby. It isn't perfect but neither am I. I have been wanting to publish this fully and I have on a seperate wattled account under the name bad boys mission and took it down. under the username GOTTO14 I have also published two other books on that wattpad account called believe and wildflower if you wanna go check those out aswell.

Pain Reconciled by Love by MamaSunflower3

This book is published on amazon.com. I put it on here for Wattpadders to read for free! Have you ever felt so much emotional pain that you just wanted to end it all? Have you ever felt so much physical pain that you thought death was nearer than you had hoped for? Maybe you have felt one, but not both, or maybe you have felt both. These poems were written for those who have felt pain like no other. You may be your own worst enemy, but you are also your own best friend. Sometimes, no one is there to help you get up off that floor, so it is up to you to help your own self. Once you find that you can take care of yourself, you can take care of and love others. Humans need love to survive. If we didn't have love, we'd all be robots and simply not human. The love doesn't have to be from a significant other. Maybe it's from a best friend or close family member? Just know that we are all in this game of life together. So, let's live it with love. I had entered the deepest depths of pain and agony. I had given up on my life. I tried to end my life, and I would have been successful. Three people saved me that day, at the end of 2017. First, was myself. I had to come to terms with who I was and turn it all back around. I had to lean on my Creator, who was my second life saver. Jesus came to my aid and saved my life after I tried to take it. The third person who saved me was my husband. Before we met I would have died, but he needed me just like I needed him. I am alive for him, for my two sons, for myself, and for my Heavenly Father. "I couldn't make it stop, Until I met my rock. So, here are my words of wisdom, "Pain reconciled by love" is my rhythm." There is hope. There is a purpose to this life. Pain Reconciled by Love is full of heartache, but also full of beauty. I'm still alive because there is something for me out there. I hope this is the beginning to something beautiful. For you and for me.

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Untitled Fears

I was close to dying if not from my sister. I went from bitches at school to my alcoholic, addict abusing mother. Then my best friend decided he wanted stop be part of the crew that cries for me to give me another reason to live. I didn't want another one but...it feels nice. Warning: This is rated MATURE for a reason. Mentions of cutting, abuse, alcoholism, bullying, gayness, and Gacha pictures because they help me visualize my characters better. If any of these things make you uncomfortable, get the hell away from my story, no one said you had to sit here and read this. I am not a professional writer but I did try with what my pain and emotions gave me. The entirety of the story is explained over time so if you want to sit and read, be my guest. Our protagonist is Ryan and let's just say he's gonna go through hell and back.