THIS SUCKS

I would like to start with the fact, that, I know self diagnosis is bad. it's unhealthy and unrecommended(if that's even a word). And I don't diagnose myself with BPD, but that just seems to be it. All the symptoms make sense, now. And I wanna clarify, that I did go to a counselor . once. a while ago. anyway when I went to a shrink doesn't matter. what does matter is, I did. my school sent me to him. I had done something ,not that awful but not very good either. don't worry I am not a bully, or a murderer or a rapist either. but, coming to the point, I somehow had managed to hoodwink the councellor. he thought I was perfectly fine. now, that is a matter of great dispute. anyway, the purpose of this diary is to relieve myself of the info overload that this ongoing dispute makes me a victim of. I don't know I may just be a bitch who overreacts like my dear mother seems to think. or at least I seem to think that that is what she thinks . I need this as a diary. thanks.