The Disease in my Brain
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Ongoing<5 mins
Last published Fri, Aug 5, 2022
People say it's better to express than to suffer
My question is..is it really so?....
Here I am expressing..not knowing what's good out of it..
It's just I know I'm not alone.. And this for you..to make you know you're not alone...
A series of short writings presenting some of my brain desease.
Caution ⚠️..
•They are just some of my feelings and not intended to trigger anyone.
• it's a bit dark so if you don't like these kinds of writtings.. I would request to not to go through it.
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