Peace
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Hi my name is mark I'm 15 years old I have a rare disorder that causes me to stay depressed but I don't feel much emotions...I only feel laughter...I always feel so much alone...and my friends doesn't care much about me...cuz they think I'm a weirdo..My friends think that I'm always chilling.....but they don't know who I am... where's the real me....I always look to the mirror and ask myself that "am I a monster?why am I so different? what's wrong with me? etc." While laughing and crying...I was so lost...so one day I decided to find my peace and ... ....that day was my last day....I grabbed a rope and tie it on the ceiling...put my neck on the rope...while smiling I just said "well I can finally rest"...Minutes passed.... and after a while my family saw me while hanging on the celling ...and that was the day they truly love me...that was the day everyone needed me....that was the day....they missed me....that was the day when they cried a lot for me-they called the emergency ambulance...right on time....I lived...but still I did it again in while I was in hospital........well I can't help it anymore....I just wanted too rest......forever....
this is my first written story:)...I hope you liked it..who has read my story
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