After All This Time - infinitemerlin - Wattpad

After All This Time

Reads 159
Votes 6
Parts 1
Time 24m

Reads 159
Votes 6
Parts 1
Time 24m

alone angst angsty arthur arthurpendragon bbcmerlin depression despair emrys gwen happy hope hopeful lonely lonelymerlin love magic merlin merlinfandom merthur modernday morgana morganapendragon sad sorcery

"Merlin awoke with a startle, covered in sweat and tears. He sat up on his bed and held his hands in his head, his fingers scraping at his scalp and his elbows resting on his legs. 'Oh, God! I'm a monster!' He sobbed. 'I'm a monster!'" 

Merlin's happy and cheerful modern-day life is shattered when deep feelings of emotional trauma and guilt resurface - and it's not an accident. Yet it may all change with just a knock at his door. Battling nightmares, utter despair, and drowning in guilt -- at one point is it all too much for one man to bear?

Caveat lector: full story will contain dark themes/suicide referencesAll Rights Reserved

alone angst angsty arthur arthurpendragon bbcmerlin depression despair emrys gwen happy hope hopeful lonely lonelymerlin love magic merlin merlinfandom merthur modernday morgana morganapendragon sad sorcery

Table of contents

Chapter 1
Sat, Nov 28, 2020

1 part

Chapter 1
Sat, Nov 28, 2020

Sign up to add After All This Time to your library and receive updates

or

Content Guidelines

You may also like

Take 65 by Dean-M

When Merlin gets injured and falls ill, what will Arthur do? (Morgana is alive, Gwen is with Lancelot, Eventual Pergwaine, Arthur knows about Merlin's magic) Began November 2018, finished November 2020. All credit to BBC #3 in bbcmerlin #1 in merlinxarthur #1 in merlinfanfic #5 in merthur #2 in arthurpendragon #6 in Merlin #3 in sorcery #5 in kingarthur

Merlin's Son: A Tale old as Time • Merthur by merthur102

Freya lives the attack, only just. But when she dies giving birth, Merlin's Son is born just before the Tears of Uther Pendragon, what will Merlin do to protect his child? What will Arthur do, when he finds out? Based of the series, but not completely. Featuring Merthur, Arthur 'not being a stupid prat', Good Morgana, Gwen and Lancelot and a whole lot of cuteness. Here's a snippet from one of the chapters: "I do not want your gold! I want to live without being hunted, without fear. I want magic to be alive again!" He said and Arthur grinned. He didn't even have to think about it. Anything for you, Merls. "Done." --- *Disclaimer* I can't take credit for the cover as I found it on Pinterest, I don't own Merlin either, if I did Merthur would be more than just fanfiction, all rights go to the creators. #1 in Pendragon 22/05/21 #1 in merlinbbc - 3/05/21 #1 in Camelot - 27/03/21 #1 in Merthur 23/12/20 #1 in Merlin 7/01/21 #1 in merlinxarthur 29/12/20 #1 in onceandfutureking - 1/10/20 #1 in Morgana - 2/01/21 #1 in Merlinfanfic 7/10/20 #1 in couldbegayer 8/11/20

A Different Ending by downtoreadatanytime

Merlin casts the the most powerful spell in the history of magic to save Arthur. It leaves him in a slump suffering the side-effects. Merlin is plagued with nightmares, hallucinations, and more. Will they be able to help their friend Merlin? Or will Merlin hide the extent of his pain and drown as a result? This story is specifically for fans of the Merlin TV show. We pick up right at the last episode of the show however I made a few changes...This work is my own with the addition of a completely new story line that just continues that heart-felt and silly world from the show that we all love. This story is about love and the struggles that we must overcome in the name of it. A lot of Merthur, but I keep it pretty pg-13 so don't expect a lot of smut. I DON'T OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS or pictures I found them on google so if you know the artists plz comment! This story does spoil the ending of the show so if you haven't seen it go watch it and the come back! Hope you enjoy!!

ONLY FOR YOU // Merlin/Merthur Oneshots by ambyssall

description edited 7/13/2022 hi, it's ya boy ambyssall. merlin is my comfort show and i am a gay little boy who is absolutely bonkers over these stupid men. look, i update once in a blue moon and the first few chapters are like... not very good writing because i wrote them THREE YEARS AGO. anyways i think i'm funny so i created this monstrosity of a oneshot collection :) give it a chance if you'd like :D or don't it's up to you. as of 5/25/23, the ONLY FOR YOU collection has been completed. look forwards to my new collection, TWO SIDES OF A COIN!

So we meet again... (a merthur au) by deathbyinsomnia

[COMPLETE 25/25] Do you ever feel such a deep connection to a complete stranger that you feel as though you know them from somewhere else, from a long time ago? Without the memories of when he was called "The Once and Future King", Arthur-the-office-worker felt without purpose until a boy named Emrys walked into his life, and he would never be the same. Maybe being without a true destiny has its perks. Tagged for language and descriptions of dark subject matter that readers may find disturbing. You have been warned.

Merlin: The Secret by MysteryOfWordsDK

This is a Fan-Fiction based upon the BBC series 'Merlin': Merlin is busy as usual working as King Arthur's servant. He rarely gets a good night's sleep, and it's beginning to take its toll on him. The king begins to notice. Love is growing between Arthur and Gwen, which is a joy to some, but a curse to others. Morgana goes all in to prevent Gwen from taking her place as queen beside Arthur on the throne of Camelot. She is prepared to do anything to win and is now more determined than ever to discover who Emrys truly is. Will Merlin be able to keep up appearences and at the same time fulfill his destiny? Will he have enough strength to defeat Morgana? And perhaps most importantly; will Arthur finally learn the truth? It becomes clear to Merlin that he must guard his secret with even greater care - or it might no longer hold. One thing is for sure; everyone is in for a surprise as the story unfolds... (Continued in my other story "Merlin; The Land Of Albion") :D

Merthur oneshots by evestarmusicstar

Pls do read this! It starts out bad but I get better at writing as time passes! This is a merthur one shot book it is going to be almost all fluff maybe one or two angst. I will not write smut. Unfortunately I don't own Merlin or any of the other characters. They belong to the bbc Merlin. I made this cuz some fanfics that I wanna see don't get written so here they are. Also I know this is rated mature, but that is not because of the naughty!!! That is because I am sometimes to eager and able to write gore. So be prepared my beautiful children!

For the Love of Camelot by ekmkitty

TW: Attempted suicide ! CAUTION: MAY CONTAIN SERIOUS FEELS ! This is a Merthur fanfic. For those who don't ship, don't read. Out of the corner of his eye, the warlock saw a dark figure approaching his King, sword drawn. Arthur's Bane. But Merlin could not release his attention from the powerful magic that he was wreaking on Morgana's army, and could only watch hopelessly as the man he loved and the druid boy fell. DISCLAIMER: I do not own Merlin, its characters, or some of the dialogue used in the first several chapters, however the writing is all mine. Merlin is property of BBC, and no copyright violations are intended.

5 Times Arthur And The Knights Broke Merlin And The 1 Time He Let Them Fix Him by AslansDefender

Knife. Table. Throat. Instantly alert, adrenaline flooding through him, Arthur's body automatically moved in time with his thoughts, his hand fisting around the handle of the knife before his mind registered that the intruder was talking. "Arthur, stop- it's me, it's Percival-" Arthur's mind registered the voice and he dropped the knife, thankfully before he reached phase three. He bolted upright as Percival's hands fell off his shoulders, leaving him only able to guess where his knight was in the dark. "Percival- what're you doing here?" He flung off the covers and swung his feet over the edge, the panicked adrenaline slowly ebbing from his veins, leaving him with only a clear head. He reached for the scarlet shirt on the bedside table. Percival wouldn't have woken him unless it was important. "We weren't sure what else to do, Sire, it's Merlin." Important, indeed. Or, the five times Arthur and his knights try to help Merlin and the one time Merlin realizes he deserves help too.

Mistaken Identity by WeAreMellyn

A sorcerer on the streets of Camelot laughs in Uther's face and insults his pride. When Arthur is accused of sorcery, will Merlin, Morgana and Gwen be able to save him, or will he be burnt alive before they can change Uther's stubborn ways? A relatively short story from BBC's Merlin. This takes place before Morgana is evil and Arthur doesn't know of Merlin's magic. Written by @ghostofwolves and @EstelElfstone DISCLAIMER: WE DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS! THEY ALL BELONG TO BBC AND THIS IS BASED OFF BBC'S MERLIN!

You may also like

Slide 1 of 10

Merlin's Son: A Tale old as Time • Merthur cover

A Different Ending cover

ONLY FOR YOU // Merlin/Merthur Oneshots cover

So we meet again... (a merthur au) cover

Merlin: The Secret cover

Merthur oneshots cover

For the Love of Camelot cover

5 Times Arthur And The Knights Broke Merlin And The 1 Time He Let Them Fix Him cover

Mistaken Identity cover

Take 65

When Merlin gets injured and falls ill, what will Arthur do? (Morgana is alive, Gwen is with Lancelot, Eventual Pergwaine, Arthur knows about Merlin's magic) Began November 2018, finished November 2020. All credit to BBC #3 in bbcmerlin #1 in merlinxarthur #1 in merlinfanfic #5 in merthur #2 in arthurpendragon #6 in Merlin #3 in sorcery #5 in kingarthur