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After All This Time
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infinitemerlin
Ongoing, First published Nov 28, 2020
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"Merlin awoke with a startle, covered in sweat and tears. He sat up on his bed and held his hands in his head, his fingers scraping at his scalp and his elbows resting on his legs. 'Oh, God! I'm a monster!' He sobbed. 'I'm a monster!'" 

Merlin's happy and cheerful modern-day life is shattered when deep feelings of emotional trauma and guilt resurface - and it's not an accident. Yet it may all change with just a knock at his door. Battling nightmares, utter despair, and drowning in guilt -- at one point is it all too much for one man to bear?

Caveat lector: full story will contain dark themes/suicide references
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