The Company We Keep

Why the fuck do I place myself in situations that endanger my life?
It's because I depend on others to save me and I'm a selfish bitch. I never take responsibility of my own actions or learn from mistakes I have made in the past. Who would blame me for being a bitch because I constantly surround myself with people that would swindle their own mother to get what they want, or someone that would double-cross you just to save their own skin. I always say that consequences don't faze me in the slightest, but in reality they do. Usually I end up running when things get complicated (see the selfishness.) Yet, what amazes me is the person who I rely on is the one I let down the most. Jasmine, my rescuer, the only person that puts up with the likes of me. Along with my stupid decisions any sane person wouldn't make. Then again I know she'll always be there, but I wonder how long it will last.