Never Let You Go

"Luke! Stop it won't help!" Alex tried.
"It has to. We cannot leave Julie like this!" he bellowed, turning on his friend. God it felt like he was suffocating. The suit was too hot and the room was too bright and his mind was racing.
He kicked at the door before collapsing in front of it, feeling the tell tale lump in his throat growing. He didn't want to lose it now. He wouldn't give Caleb the satisfaction. He rested his head on the wood of the door and let a few hot tears escape.
He'd broken his promise. Again. It seemed that was all he was good at.
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Luke's perspective in 1x09 from after "Nothing to Lose" through the end of the studio scene.