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hi,
I'm Jenifer

this is life, my beautiful fucking life.


life....shit is gonna happen.
it's gonna get complicated.
we're gonna replase. we're gonna need time- outs.
we're gonna be weak. and we're gonna be strong. we're gonna lose our shit and yell for people to get out of our lives.
we're gonna break down and beg for some people to stay in our lives.
this life shit isn't a movie, and I think sometimes, we forgot that.





MYFEELINGS
my feelings now..I feel alone. I can't let people in, I'll only get hurt.
I feel scared.not only of people and places, but myself too.
what if I lose control? i feel guilty.


ME
I'm quickly, silly, blunt, and broken.
my day's are some times too dark, and my nights are sometimes too long.
I often trip over my own insecurities.
I require attention, long for passion, and wish to be desired, I use music to speak when words fail me, even though words are as important to me as the air I breath.All Rights Reserved

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