Beautifuly Desired

The music bumps loudly into my ears. Body's on top of body's and I'm unable to hear. I see my friends dancing, having fun , laughing things I myself am unable to do. I feel the need to be normal but what is normal! Her words taught me everyday as if a tap recorder is repeating inside my head. The memory of that accident will forever be inside my brain, haunting me every night. How I wish they would stop, the nightmares , and sleepless nights but it can't and won't. My thoughts are cut off by the a stranger breathing down my neck.
" hey there sweet cheeks looking for some fun" I look and him and shriek in disgust. Oh how I want to be rid of this so called life.
I look up at the at the man that is literally humping me like a dog in heat. The alcohol on him is prominent makes my want to vomit.
"P.....p..... Please j.....just get off me" he gose to grab my hand and I smack his away. He then pauses and look at me a very scary expression taking over his face. Oh no what have I done.