I Give You Love, You Give Me Pain

I hate my life. I hate everything about it.
The people, the places, the memories; but surprisingly I don't want to die.
I want to live, be free, love if that's even possible.
Except my whole life has been filled with nothing but destruction and sadness.
How do I make a future out of that?
I don't know, and truth is, I probably won't ever.
But the least I can do is continue to live and hope until the day my breath is taken from me.