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"I wanted nothing more than to just take that blade and glide it across my skin. The burning sensation making all the mental and emotional pain go away. How many more times do I have to go through with this? How long do I have to suffer? The memories are what drives me to destruction. If only I can stop, forgive and forget, maybe I'll be able to get over it."

They say things/events happen for a reason. But for Izelle, the things that occurred in her life always seemed to happen to the ones she loved the most. All she wants is a normal life, but what is normal? What will save Izelle from the damnation that has resided in her life?All Rights Reserved

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