Desiderium
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Ongoing, First published Dec 11, 2020
Mae the immortal, spends her days trying to live peacefully and avoid a man who  she believes could destroy her life. She questions her immortality and everything else in her life, including her lover, wondering why they must run. She goes on a journey of self discovery to find who she is, and to find out if everything is truly as it seems.
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I sigh through my nose and briefly look at the cloudy sky, it's gonna rain soon. I close my eyes, wishing he'd move.

I can hear him before he speaks, it's hard to move away.

"You're trying to ignore me, Mae, but you can't."

I shake my head and keep my eyes closed. I can't look at him, Vie said he only takes.

I feel his presence draw closer, a cool comforting breeze slipping past my form.

"You need me." His alluring words brushing past my ears, I squeeze my eyes tighter.

"Go away, Tod, there's others for you."

I hear a deep chuckle, the breeze now makes me shiver. Where did the sun go?

"None like you, Mae, none like you."

I feel his presence slip away and I open eyes. I see he's gone and look around, wondering if he truly left, knowing he hadn't.

I make my way over to Vie seeing she knows he's here too, by the solemn look on her face. 

I'm so tired of running.




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