"do you have wifi?" + kidnapped but they're cool though -+- started [ 2019.01.22 ] finished [ 2019.06.11 ] rewritten [ currently in drafts ] tw!! sexual assault, suicide, self harm, abuse, and eating disorders!! read at your own risk!!

You never really realize what kind of bad things can happen to people until you actually see these things happen. When I was seventeen, my best friend went through something that has left me traumatized to this day. If only we’d been more informed, maybe we could have done something. We could have tried to help. But I seemed to have been the only person listening to her silent cries for help. And there wasn’t anything I could do. Cover made by my friend Tee (AKA A_Blonde_Unicorn)

schizophrenia and anorexia meets depression and anxiety. both shoved into a home for troubled teens, but possibly the only helped they needed was each other. *UNEDITED*

I've cried too hard for too long as I debated death. Over and over, all I wanted was a quick overdose, a quick way to escape the pain. Until the guilt set it and made me realise, suicide feels too selfish. Instead I turned my sadness into art and my pain into strength. Desperately wanting to carve up my skin, I bled on a page. My screams are silent, hidden behind closed doors, And computer screens. All these horrible emotions kept secret in notebooks. I'm too afraid to speak about it, so I write it down That's how my poetry is made. ~The birth of poetry -Me ____ First place in 2021 Irenic Awards poetry catergory Highest rankings: #16 original work #2 relapsing

Anorexia. Something nobody believes could ruin them until it's far too late. Ivy is infected with the thoughts of anorexia. This is her story as she gradually loses herself to her mind. This story is meant to remind people of the reality of anorexia, it is a glorified disorder that is truly horrific and it takes the life of many people every year. If you or a loved one is struggling with an eating disorder get help immediately. The longer it goes on, the harder it is to get better and the more likely it is that you or they will die or suffer long term complications. Resources are available at places like the NEDA Information about eating disorders can be found at: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/what-are-eating-disorders And treatment options can be found at: https://map.nationaleatingdisorders.org/

📌 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐒𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐡 𝐏𝐚𝐮𝐥𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐒𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐡 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐞𝐭. 𝐀𝐧𝐲𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬,𝐄𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲!! 📌𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗜𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝗱𝗲𝘀: -𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 (18+ only!!) 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆: 𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐒 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇, 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 & 𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄 etc.!! 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐕𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐃!! 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐀𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐊!!. [ᶠᵉᵐ!ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳˢ ᵒⁿˡʸ]

She's never had problems, until recently. Recently, her world has been falling apart, but from the inside out. Turned into a depressed girl with serious eating disorder problems, all she wants to do is let go of everything, and be thin. Lighter than air and be the skinniest of all. Slowly, she's drifting away from the real world into a world of her own, and pieces of her every day disappear and then she realises, but it's too late. Or is it? It's never too late to change... Right? The only person that can fix her is herself. *trigger warning* highest ranking in poe / 20

'We all started to appreciate each other a little more, and stopped oppression one another a little less.' We are all fighting our own demons. For Emma, Anorexia. For Leo, uncertainty of the future. Jordi, turmoil and trying to leave his past behind. Kara, her addictions. And Dash, his slight incapability to show his real emotions. Now the whole gang is back together, and they must help one another through all of the hardships faced at Ocean Park. •RBS• Ranked 20 out of 142 for anorexia recovery 6/1/2018

"I smile everyday. I live my life like nothing is wrong with me. No one would ever guess that I'm screaming inside or that I've secretly been hiding this huge part of my life. No one would ever know that I cry myself to sleep at night or that deep down I'm starving for help." Welcome to Anorexia. Your hostess is Ana. She'll take over from here. Suffering alone inside of your mind from a terrifying mental disorder, is something that even those who battle such a thing every day, cannot fully understand. It's like being alone 24/7 yet it's never quiet inside of your head. You can't stop the voices. You can't control your emotions. As it gets worse, you lose control of your body all together. You become prey to your disease and You can't fight back. That is what it's like for someone who has spent years of their life suffering in silence from an eating disorder. Fighting a monster that you have no chance of beating. It's almost impossible to describe the type of torture that consumes your mind. Hell. It's equivalent to pure hell.

Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25