It wasn't an immediate realization for Tankie. In fact it took around a year to even realized he didn't feel just annoyance for ankiddy. it especially sucked since ancap of all people was the one to even point out he harboured these feelings. but what's he supposed to do? his them? he's never felt this way towards someone before and he could've never imagined it would be towards a stupid, lazy, hippie, junkie like ancom.