Life is Just a Fantasy (Phan)
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Last published Sun, Aug 13, 2017
Dan and Phil have been friends for years. Dan desperately wants to find his other half and Phil has someone in his life who can't let go.
Can Phil's fragile BF ever let Phil walk out of his life?
The trip to Crete changes everything. While Dan is there, will Dan discover the truth about himself? Will he find out who is secretly out to hurt him?
Things are said, mistakes are made and hearts are broken as they try to discover who their own hearts truly belong with.
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