Into the Darkness
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Hi, I'm KS and I struggle with depression. When I was twelve, my parents enrolled me in homeschooling even though my mother and I got along horribly. During that year, we fought constantly. Growing more and more depressed and finding little or no escape, I turned to self-harm. Though I know its bad, I haven't stopped. However, I have found alternatives to cutting. And this is it. This is a book of some of my poems. I will continue adding more as I write more.
Enjoy, Reader. And remember this, you have worth and you are beautiful. Whenever you think no one loves you, know that I do. I'm here for you to talk to and I'm here to help you anyway I can. You are beautiful and were put on this earth with a purpose.
Update (6/29/15):
I haven't self harmed in a few months. Still struggling with the temptation, but I'm getting better. I hope those of you out there who understand my struggle are doing okay as well. Remember, I'm always here for you to talk to.
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Hi I'm Angela I'm 17 years old and I'm in the twelfth grade. I cut . I'm fat . I'm ugly . I'm worthless . I'm me .Everyone thinks I'm the one who is always happy but in the inside , im dying . I've been abused my whole life. I've been bullied since the third grade and I've been cutting since the 7th grade .I want it to be normal again,like it was in the past. I use to have a best friend but we grew apart . Now The only persons that helped, helps me get through this they don't kne that I exist . They're Niall,Liam,Louis,Harry, Zayn. Yeah I know it's corny but I love them . To you they might be gay ugly worthless but to me there my everything . they will always have apiece of my heart just for them.
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