Into the Darkness
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Hi, I'm KS and I struggle with depression. When I was twelve, my parents enrolled me in homeschooling even though my mother and I got along horribly. During that year, we fought constantly. Growing more and more depressed and finding little or no escape, I turned to self-harm. Though I know its bad, I haven't stopped. However, I have found alternatives to cutting. And this is it. This is a book of some of my poems. I will continue adding more as I write more.
Enjoy, Reader. And remember this, you have worth and you are beautiful. Whenever you think no one loves you, know that I do. I'm here for you to talk to and I'm here to help you anyway I can. You are beautiful and were put on this earth with a purpose.
Update (6/29/15):
I haven't self harmed in a few months. Still struggling with the temptation, but I'm getting better. I hope those of you out there who understand my struggle are doing okay as well. Remember, I'm always here for you to talk to.
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